sad veiled bride
can you please stop time?
Re: Share your psychopath story here...
I used the word 'decide', but it wasn't really correct, not completely. I don't feel I have a big decisional power on anything at this time, but this is a complicated matter and I'm not going to give too many details of my (real) life. But I do understand very well what you say about that sort of perverse semiconscious tendency to 'become a victim'. I'm aware and I'm sort of working on it...
But why should you suffer a moment longer? Especially as you say, you decide when it stops. Why would you choose suffering over not?
I think if you are waiting for someone to fill the void left behind you might find yourself with history repeating. Some people pray on the vulnerable and the wanting. To those people you might as well hold up a sign that says "I am a victim." And in reality, you will be. But you don't have to be. You create your own experience and you validate your own self belief. Others will just follow your lead. It's within you to change the pattern. Habits can be hard to break but it can be done.
I used the word 'decide', but it wasn't really correct, not completely. I don't feel I have a big decisional power on anything at this time, but this is a complicated matter and I'm not going to give too many details of my (real) life. But I do understand very well what you say about that sort of perverse semiconscious tendency to 'become a victim'. I'm aware and I'm sort of working on it...