See, the thing of it is, when you have a high-professional job meaning, you supposed to be an asset to the community, people clearly think you have some higher standards on ways of living.
However, when I tell my colleagues whom I thought were my friends that I'm excited that I'm travelling to see my favorite bands for gigs, they seemingly look their noses down snottily at me thinking I'm below their professional standards...this is hurtful b/c it makes me think I'm being immature about my responsibilities in my employment.
Secondly though, I'm a very happy person in life yet, uncontent b/c I just thought by at least 30 I would've been married but, my ex-fiancee' died. It would be nice to be wanted, desired, cared about & yes....loved...Plus, I've had very, very unsuccessful attempts & processes in the dating world. Therefore, I'm a realist. I believe what I believe in that I do NOT have a soul-mate or a true love. Hey, call that cynicalism but, I call it reality. Trust me as I've always said realistically, no-one is pining or crying over my heart & never will...that's just LIFE.
RE: MEET-UPS: Finally to clarify all of that, someone is ALWAYS "better" than you in all terms of life whether it be by their money/looks/wit/charm/education/occupation. It's just sad b/c seriously, sometimes it is just HARD to walk into a room at these meet-ups knowing this...and how everyone is comparing themselves against you immediately. That's the main reason I ANGST at going to these stupid meet-ups. There, I said it.
Still though, I'm happy for everyone & positive for the future while being non-judgemental, non-discriminatory. I care about people & again, thanks for the inputs. I am just clarifying what I feel regarding all of this...
