More! More! So what happened? How did you get out of that situation when you were completely robbed? Tell all!!
Well, at that time I was very much concerned with dropping my belief systems, conditioning, and somehow expanding my world and appreciating all that I take for granted as a rather lucky American... I had never experienced financial hardship and I had traveled the world etc etc. I was somehow ANTI a lot of things... and I wanted to grow up and see the world and what it is like to be free and on your own. As that was the beginning of my trip... the 2000 dollars that were stolen were all mine - I had earned them at an after school job the previous year. Fortunately it was all in travelers checks... at least all but a few hundred dollars.
Anyway when I got out of the shower and realized my stuff was gone I sort of went blank. I did not allow the fear to overwhelm me on the spot. I put my clothes on and went exactly where I had planned to go before this happened... to a master I had been sitting with a for a couple of weeks now. I had been sitting with a Tamil master down at Mount Arunachala near Ramana Maharshi Ashram in Tiruvanamali before this one; at first i thought the Tamil master was the reason I had come to India - but after a few months I asked him if I could leave... the monsoon was coming and South India is treacherous in the summer. He gave me his blessing to go.
I met another traveler - an older woman who needed a young person to help her along the way traveling North. We went to Auroville and I rented a motorcycle and rested in a beach hotel for a few days - it was my first week away from the Tamil Master - and I had been with him for months so it was a separation - energetically from a somewhat deep guy... But he did not speak any English, was pretty traditional in the format of the satsang and all that... and I felt he was not "IT" but nonetheless something had happened to this guy energetically... anyhow.
I traveled on with this older woman from Holland... helped her with her bags and tickets and listened to her many stories from the road. She told me she would take me to a Master in the North and that I should certainly go to Osho Meditation Resort - where this masters master had been... but anyways... It was this lady who took me to the town where I was robbed... wonderful old witch of a woman she was!
So, I had been on my way to see this Master for Satsang (sitting in meditation) when I was robbed. So I went to the Satsang on foot rather than rickshaw as I had no money... and I sat silently at his feet basically - with about 30 other western and about 20 Indian seekers and disciples of his. I was very very afraid when I arrived, but I knew I could not interrupt and the best thing I could do for myself was to sit silently and watch my mind freak out - realize that I am not the mind, I am not the fear, I am not anything but a watcher on the hill... my life is like a play... a drama, and nothing that happens outside can touch me.
It worked. I watched the fear and did not get identified with it.
I feel that in that hour - much changed inside of me.
So when satsang ended this teacher or master or whatever he is - he asked me what was happening... I guess he felt the energy of my experience. I told him what happened and he called over two of his disciples who would be traveling to Bombay with him that evening. One of them gave me about 10 dollars... with which i bought a 3rd class train ticket on the same train in which they were traveling first.
3rd class in India is very very poor. The seats are metal and the windows are just bars... there are animals on the train and everybody is in rags. I looked around and it was almost as if I were watching a beautiful movie... that this really was not happening to "me." People in India share a lot and when the tea walla came by offering chai... i did not have enough money for a cup... it was 5 rupees... (48 rupees to one dollar) - the poor people sitting there - a family... they offered to buy me a cup and I declined... but they ordered it for me anyway and handed it to me with black toothed smiles. Real - very real poverty all around me - and in that moment - they had more than i did. I did not even have a paper with my name on it.
I got to Bombay and tagged along with that master and the caretaker and disciple... a rich man from Germany and a younger woman from Italy. The hotel manager was not going to let me stay without a passport but I think this master is respected and they allowed me to stay. The next day i went to the American Embassy where I just knocked on the Gate. The intercom voice asked what I wanted and I told them what happened. The gate slowly and automatically opened up and I saw a little piece of America - FORD cars with the steering wheel on the left side of the car and all! A guy with a Donald Duck tie came with a big warm smile and he was laughing saying that I looked like I had been through an ordeal. They replaced my passport, visa and they gave me some money so I could go to American express and get my checks back.
I paid the rich german guy for the hotel night and the master told me to come back with them - they had finished their business in Bombay. I sat with that master once more... he was going to travel with his crew up to Minali - but he pulled me aside and told me to come with him to Osho Meditation Resort. He left me there and told me not to come to the mountains but to stay here for a while... and the moment that I walked through the gates at Osho Med Resort (
www.osho.com) well... I don't think anybody could have dragged me away from the place - master or no master. I realized when I got there that I had been looking for this place since I even thought of going to india... at about 18. And it turned out that my first teacher (Eugene Trimboli) who introduced me to meditation in the states and who was also my English lit teacher - had been at that place many years ago and in fact Osho is his master... long long magical story - but I ended up taking sannyas just like my first teacher in the states had many many years before. He never told me to go to Pune (Osho) - so when I ended up there and wrote to him that I had found my place - he smiled and laughed and said "on the entire subcontinent of India how did you end up finding the same master as I (your first teacher) did so many years ago?"
long long story but right now I can't make it any clearer than that... I am just taking a break but really should get back to work now.