> hallo colleen!
> i've been around..distracted, daydreaming, wasting time..business as usual
> in my side of the world. recently picked up the new live CD, really like
> it, especially the cover of "Redondo Beach" (one of few Patti
> Smith songs I can actually stand).
> Moz has influenced the way i look at certain things as well. I tend to
> view the whole rat-race mentality of this culture as unhealthy and a waste
> of energy..i mean why not just find a niche and be comfortable in it? i am
> way too sleepy to elaborate at this late hour..oh and how i got into
> Morrissey, well it was about 1997 when the Maladjusted album came
> out..Live 105 in SF played a block of Smiths stuff and it was just so
> wonderful..it was "Panic", "Hand in Glove", and
> "There is a Light that Never Goes Out". I was just so impressed
> with what I heard, I went online and looked up the Smiths, saw all the
> info and things about this "Morrissey" character...I located and
> read his James Dean book, which I pored over several times...I love the
> way he writes...my Smiths fanaticism spawned a romantic relationship with
> a girl who loved me and then began to hate me because of my obsessiveness
> over her...i was absolutely madly in love with her then, it was unhealthy.
> i gave her a pile of Smiths tapes and CDs at one point and never got them
> back after she left me..i was convinced i was going to jump off the Golden
> Gate Bridge that very day.
> Well this has gone off the deep end, so what else is new? I shall go to
> bed now, with my strobe sending me into a lucid dream...
Well, it's great to see you back, Ahtoh! oh no, your precious CD's & tapes gone! That's painful in itself! Yes, I have the James Dean book as well, and it's well read ( I haven't cracked the spine because I want it in good condition, but I'd never ever sell it. I remember I spent only $5.00 usd for it in an independent record store- I think the value has gone WAY up since the mid 80's. I love the way he writes, as well. And I also like the picture of him in his overcoat as a young lad He has been blessed with S0 many gifts and has put them to exceptional use. I love him, and I always will. When I first heard The Smiths I thought I'd died and gone to heaven. I am only 3 years younger than Moz, and I remember all too well the hairbands, and in school people only liking KISS (whom I detest). David Bowie was a saving grace and others I cannot think of right now (it's 3:15AM) here in California, I just couldn't sleep. My cat, aptly named Kit kept pouncing on my head so I said to hell with it and made some tea.) Every time I see Morrissey, I just want to cry with happiness. There is such a visceral emotion inside of me that makes me want to cry or laugh or both. Well, I fell deeply in love during that time with this quirky man whom I thought was simply *eccentric* but it turned out he was gay. He made me feel like everyday was kindergarten! We'd have our private jokes, and laugh at things no one understood. He became a Smiths fan too, after I drowned him in all things Morrissey
But then I began to fall in love with him. (why didn't I SEE it?). He was polite and caring and told me that he was gay. I recall crying in the shower because I didn't believe it-best of friends for six years and now he is dead. AIDS. When he caught Hepetitis B, he turned completely yellow. He was going to gay bars and doing everything in sight. I miss him so much. He'd say the most outlandish things to people in stores, and while I hid from embarassment, he'd just laugh. R.I.P. Keith. Anyway, before I get all teary eyed, I am glad you are back, AHT0H. For the most part, most Smiths/Morrissey supporters know what this is like, because we are different. Different in an exceptional way. AHT0H, I hope you are doing fine, and wish you all the best. Colleen