Girl-with-the-Thorn
Still here.
f*** the romanticisation of unrequited lust. Being hung up on someone and totally unable to gage their feelings is just plain shitty. I'm so bad at this stuff.
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f*** the romanticisation of unrequited lust. Being hung up on someone and totally unable to gage their feelings is just plain shitty. I'm so bad at this stuff.
Oh God! Two of my favourite people here (Crystal and Girl with the Thorn) sound like they are going through a rough time. I'm so sorry and wish I was around to administer hugs, drugs and consoling words.
Hey Crystalgeezer, OK, I hold the drugs.I'll take a hug. No drugs plz. kthx.
Here's the deal. I say yes to things because:
1. I am a nice person.
2. I feel like I have to do stuff to make life better cosmically. Like me caring for a baby helps people. I just thought it would be my own. Or not to sound like Kate2828, but caring for a baby as a husband or something, caring for something that I can say, "I'm going to cuddle you because we belong to together.", not cuddling someone else's baby then walking away with nothing. Or having a home and caring for it. I'm rambling... And if I say yes to caring for a baby, I go down a path of responsibility and shelve all my plans of maybe making a name for myself, being a real artist instead of worrying about cosmic artistry, and my real needs get swept under the carpet. It's hard to explain and a situation that has me wanting to bawl and scream and get f***ing pissed and feeling completely abandoned, but there's nothing I can do about my "cosmic" life because it isn't verified as real, so I just smile and go on and keep as calm as possible.
So I could see myself saying yes to being a nanny, but...it's kind of like being trapped to me. I thought other things were going to happen, that I've been doing my part, but nothing ever comes of it.
It's a cunundrum that's hard to explain and might seem stupid to most people. Making life decisions holding out the hope a fantasy is real but then trapping myself into doing nothing. And it;s hard that people think I do nothing, which is what it seems like, but I do stuff all the time in my brain. It's hard to explain.
I'm not useless.
Just ignore all this, normal people.
Oh God! Two of my favourite people here (Crystal and Girl with the Thorn) sound like they are going through a rough time. I'm so sorry and wish I was around to administer hugs, drugs and consoling words.
Oh God! Two of my favourite people here (Crystal and Girl with the Thorn) sound like they are going through a rough time. I'm so sorry and wish I was around to administer hugs, drugs and consoling words.
But CG gives us the whole story,warts and all.GWTT only gives us half the tale.I hate that.I mean,if youve got a boil on your arse,say so.It's not as if anybody's gonna take the piss or anything.....
my knee hurts
Sore knees? Carpet burn?
No,I was just getting back on topic after thread got derailed.
billy, your Morrissey-with-goiter avatar is kinda freakin me the f*** out.
Excuse my ignorance, but...what in the name of sweet baby Jesus is a goiter?