I am quite pleased right now with the things in my life. Looking forward to seeing Moz. :) Lucky I got tickets. Awesome!!! Here is what I have been listening to recently:

1) This Masquerade - The Carpenters
2) Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps - Doris Day
3) Let Me Kiss You - Nancy Sinatra
4) Son-Of-A-Preacher - Nancy Sinatra
5) Somethin' Stupid - Nancy Sinatra
6) A Thing Called Love - Johnny Cash
7) Wondrous Place - Billy Fury
8) Dont' Wanna Lose You Now - Gloria Estefan
9) One Thing - Amerie
10) Tequila - The Champs
11) La Bamba - Richie Valens
12) Never Enough - The Cure

I have also been listening to "Years Of Refusal" loads and all of Morrissey's older albums. :)

"Ammunition" - Morrissey

I know these roads
Each ridge
And narrow bridge
Each cheveron
Enticing me on
Each warning sign
I take in my stride

I don't need more ammunition
I've got more than I can spend
I don't dwell on
things I'm missing
I'm just pleased
With the things I've found

I know these roads
An old hand understands
Above all, I know what's
Expected of me now
Veering cliffwards

I don't need more ammunition
I've got more than I can spend
I don't dwell on
things I'm missing
I'm just pleased
With the things I've found
With the things I've found
With the things I've found
I've found

I've been crying
It comes back on
these salient days
And it stays
And it says :
"We've never really
been away"

I don't need more ammunition
I've got more than I can spend
I don't think of who I'm missing
I've got no space and no time
In my life, anymore
No space or time
In my life, anymore
For revenge!
 

I only just noticed that my New Year journal had gone missing cos of the problems David T was having with journals. Lucky I kept a copy of it. :) so here it is:

Hi, I just got back from a New Years party and it was awesome, I really enjoyed it. It's about 3.40am here in good ole England and I'm highly intoxicated right now but it is New Years Eve and I'm within the age of consent to drink, (well its New Years day now)...so fuck it! I'm a little emotional right now...that party rocked!!

Happy New Year everyone!

love, Me x

I really am enjoying my Christmas, Christmas Eve I had a nice relaxing time, I telephoned my family in Ireland to check in on them and wish them a Merry Christmas, it was good talking to them. Then I watched The Snowman on TV, I watch it every year since I was a child.

My brother and his family came to visit my Mum and I, it was great, we laughed and I had great fun with his kids. They are very entertaining! My uncle stopped by also....we had a ball!!

Then I just chilled out.....oh I made the trifle!

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Christmas Day....another relaxing day. Watched some TV, watched the Queens speech lol. Mum and I had a very nice dinner. Goose, a little bit of turkey, roast potatoes, carrots, brussel sprouts and traditional Irish stuffings(My Grandma's recipe) Yum! A nice glass of wine and for dessert Trifle!

Now I'm just chillin', I will most likely do the rounds later of visiting my Auntie's and Uncle's, my family is fecking huge. You've no Idea....lol. So that will lead me into the early hours of St Stevens Day! I hope everyone else is enjoying the holidays. :)

I'm sorry if I offend any vegetarians or vegans with my choice of dinner...:( I can assure you I love animals very much, like really I do! I keep trying to stop eating meat but it's hard. :( I will try to stop in the New Year...honest! *hand on heart* :)

Hello! Yay!! Christmas Day! :)......

I've just had a wash, whilst listening to Ringleader Of The Tormentors! I've being listening to it a lot recently, and fully enjoying it...more so than when I first bought it. There was always my faves on it like "I Will See You In Far Of Places", "At Last I Am Born" and my fave "To Me You Are A Work Of Art" :) but now I am appreciating songs like "Life Is A Pigsty", "The Father Who Must Be Killed" and "Dear God Please Help Me", the album sounds richer now, like a fine wine better with age.

A bit like solo, better with age...:) I first came to Morrissey-Solo in 2003 (may have been sooner??) at the age of 26....lol, younger and looking for fun, I went right past the forums and went straight for the "Chat"! I was a pain in the ass, you might say....then I took about 2 years absence from the site in 2005 and made a brief return in the fall of 2007, returning proper early this year.

I am glad I returned, I kinda missed the place and I am enjoying it better this time round....maturer...wiser. I still enjoy the chat and have really got into the forums! I have met more people this time round, good people :) In fact I've never met a more interesting, intelligent, strange(lol), and witty bunch of people. Its a joy to come here.....Merry Christmas folks! I love you :)

I have so much to do between now and Christmas, its crazy! Cards to send, presents to buy...we got our first bit of Ice too. Its shit trying to walk in it lol and its very cold too. All in all I can't moan, I'm doing great. I don't think much of the sleeve work for the Moz album but we'll see, maybe the music will blow us all away!! :) *fingers crossed*. In the meantime here's what I have been listening to:-

1) "In My Arms" - Kylie Minogue
2) "Jump To The Beat" - Dannii Minogue
3) "All Hooked Up" - All Saints
4) "Are Friends Electric?" - Gary Numan
5) "Birthday" - Sugarcubes
6) "Honey, Honey" - Mamma Mia
7) "Viva La Vida" - Coldplay
8) "You Give Me Something" - Jamiroquai
9) "Tequila" - The Champs
10) "Ooh Wee" - Mark Ronson
11) "Hunter" - Bjork
12) "Let Me Know" - Roisin Murphy

Wheres tha Vodka?? Party!!! Holla!!!.......Yahoo!!!! hahaha!

p.s No Moz on the playlist...because...I can do what I like.

Well I am still feeling on top form, top of the world today, looks like i'm not coming down any time soon. LOL...I feel really really good!

I am rather reflective today though, a few people were discussing Morrissey songs in the chat, a few days ago and someone mentioned the song "I Am Two People" and I was thinking about this and can relate to that. I feel like I am two people. I am one person online, on the net I can be very outrageous and everything else but the reality is that, I am quite a serious person when not online, a very private person and painfully shy at times.

A person once joked and said "You are a fucking recluse" and they are not far wrong. I find it hard to trust and dont have too many friends. I do feel however that this is changing and I'm happy with that, I feel like opening up now to let people into my life. I dont wanna shut people out anymore.

I am open to change now, because before I did not like change and now I am becoming more comfortable with change in my life. I think change can be a good thing. Change was something I feared before and yes, it is still a scary thing but it can be fucking great also.

I cant believe how good I am feeling right now. Yep, life is good if you let it be!

:)

"Changes" by David Bowie

I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste
was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They're quite aware
of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't tell them to grow up and out of it
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Where's your shame
You've left us up to our necks in it
Time may change me
But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me
Changes are taking the pace
I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the stranger)
Ch-ch-Changes
Pretty soon you're gonna get
a little older
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
I said that time may change me
But I can't trace time

In my previous journal I mentioned I was listening to a song by Jobriath (openly gay singer), good song too. I then got to thinking about androgynous men...and I'm quite fixated with them at the moment, Jobriath, (early) Bowie, Manson, Brian from Placebo etc. I don't know, i can't explain it and I won't try too.

I've been listening to a lot of different music lately, tonight I was listening to Morrissey of course, and I believe Moz is Gay or at least Bi. I was listening to "I'm Not Sorry"....I love that song and I feel I am not sorry for the things I've said or done! No Regrets! :)

I feel very charged up right now in my life, I don't believe I have ever felt as alive or happy as I do right now, I have a new appreciation for my life!! I feel great...and yet I feel a desperation, desires...I feel young and restless. I feel so much energy and passion I don't know what to do with myself. I feel fucking great!!

I feel very inspired too, a certain person has inspired me. I don't think they know it but they have. Maybe he doesn't mean to do it but he does, I feel like he is my mentor or something. Its like the "Karate Kid" hahaha I am somehow been taught stuff. He talks and I'm in awe, even if he is mean, its teaching me to be stronger, to take the blows in life! You would think I would have learnt some of this already but I didn't but I am now.

I want to read books that I never read before, listen to music that I never did before, eat unusual food, I want to travel and broaden my mind. I am opening my mind up to new thoughts and opinions, I am thinking outside the box. I am very blessed and grateful that I met this person, his presence in my life has made all the difference. I am truly grateful. Thankyou.

Maybe I am infatuated with him, in love some might say. Hey whatever the fuck it is or was, it woke me the fuck up out of the coma I was in, got me out of a dark rut. If he didn't or doesn't love me in return is of no matter. The fact is I felt love and it brought some fucking life back into me and I thank him.

I love my life!!! :)

I am listening to:-

1. Now My Heart Is Full - Morrissey

2. I Wish I Were A Princess - Little Peggy March

3. Run To My Loving Arms - Billy Fury

4. Dead Souls - Joy Division

5. (Naive Melody) This Must Be The Place - Talking Heads

6. I'm A Man - Jobriath (LOL)

7. Backfired - Debbie Harry

8. Edge Of Reality - Elvis Presley

9. Sojourn 95' - Mark Lane

10. King For A Day - Jamiroquai

and my feelings......well??? :)

What a good night, Jason and I went to see the uk premiere of Kylie's documentary White Diamond and it was awesome, Kylie at her best and a very good insight into her as a person, excellent costumes, she has more style than Posh! Jason and i love the glamour! I don't know how cool it is to like Kylie but i like her, it takes me back to my youth.......oh and it showed Bono on stage with her singing a version of Kids......oooh Bono is sooo HOT! I dont know how cool that is to fancy him? but i do......in fact is it cool that i like someone like Kylie as an artist and Someone like Moz?? oh well i think out of the box, you wanna see my record collection it's like an Aladdin's cave.

I had a good day today, woke up feeling positive about things, went to Preston city looking around shops with my mum and we had a good time. Tomorrow i'm off to Manchester for a gander round the shops and have a drink somewhere, i haven't been in like 10 years and i'm very excited.