Well its the last day of they year...and its a hot one! So I'm not really sure if our plans of going to see a movie are going ahead. My mum keeps texting me with weather updates....I don't think she wants me to take the kids out in the heat. I understand, but its only a 15min car ride (in an a/con car) - so I don't think it would be too bad. However the only movie that is showing is Atonement & I don't really know too much about that one.

I gave up celebrating NYE years ago...too many expectations, not enough happening. It always seemed that we just club-hopped, hoping to find somewhere that had 'it'. But you never do....

As much as it is a cliche, I have been thinking about this year & next. This year started badly, with my aunty passing away hours before her 40th birthday. That was a horrible way to start the year & there hasn't been a day when I haven't thought about her.

My daughter also started school...my baby growing up! But I am happy to say that she had a pretty good time of it & made a good group of friends & got a brilliant report card. Most importantly she enjoys going (which is more that I ever did).

We also had our first family holiday away (on a plane & everything!) which was great & something we want to do more of this year. I think we went at the right time too as there is now a cyclone in the area! Looks good on the telly, but I'm not sure if I'd want to be in the midst of it really.

I think the thing that really 'hung' over me all year was the relationship with my 'best friend'. It was a testing year for our friendship as I felt that we didn't really have much in common anymore, that we were drifitng apart. During this I went through the range of emotions - at the moment I am back to wanting to keep a bit of distance between us.

In some way I think we will always be in each others lives (her daughter & mine are close friends) - but I think it will be different. I told her about a month or so ago how I felt. She said she felt sad that I felt that way - but I don't think anything will really change.

I really think she has a good heart, but I think she uses people. "you only call me when you're feeling depressed/when you feel happy/I'm so far from your mind" (sorry Moz)

Anyway....this year I am going to work on developing new friendships & not being so hung up on hers.

When I was 11 I clearly remember wanting to be 30, I thought everyting would be 'sorted' when I was 30. Now I am about 9mths away from that 'milestone' & I really hope that it will be true. I'm hoping that the stars will align & all will be well. (in the future)