To Glittervind, who knows...

Did you ever think this day would come?
Civilizations will crumble
Stars will fall
The sky will catch fire
Mountains slide into the sea
Human diastrophism becoming a reality
Somewhere theres a place for us
I'll keep you warm
Deep
Within my subterranean lair
Take my hand
Come on...
I'll race you to the next planet.

I Love You

''If I'd slipped away
Maybe nobody'd notice
You'd probably say
It's just one of those things
With a little dismay
And a shrug of the shoulders
You'd buy a coat
Against the cold
Love...
...Has left the arena
Love...
Has left the arena

One day I'm here
The next I vanish
It may seem severe
But you carry on
It's not the end of the world
There are compensations
Maybe it's money
Maybe it's drugs
Love...
...Has left the arena
Love...
...Has left the arena

This world is spectacular
With many diversions
You can ski down a mountain
In a dayglo suit
You can build up an empire
You can be a conquistador
But when you've won
What'll you do
If love...
...Has left the arena
Love...
...Has left the arena
Love...
...Has left the arena.''
                        Nicholas Currie

To Glittervind, my shining guiding light:

Soon...
My love
Soon...

The wind of change
Blows through the gaps
In the words
And verse
That we choose
To cover and caress each other with

Soon...

Our dreams will be uncluttered
Our love undiluted
The warmth that resonates
When we are together
Will burn with a new fiercesome power

Soon...

Our first meeting place
Where a three-lettered sprite
Introduced me
To a new sense of happiness
To a being so angelic
That I love her
More than a thousand Christmasses
That place will crumble
And fall
But we will go on

...For we know.

Soon...
My Love
...Soon.

I Love You

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Positivity from the streets prt4

''I hope you understand me
Just trying to stay positive
I aint no preaching fucker and I aint no do-goody-goody either
This is about when shit goes pear-shaped
And if you aren't or never have been at rock bottom then good luck to you in the big wide world
But remember that one day shit might just start crumbling
Your girl might fuck off or you might loose your job
It's when that happens that what I'm talking about will feel much more important to you
So if you aint feeling it, just be thankfull that everythings cool in your world
Positivity!!!
Positivity!!!

Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive''
                                  Mike Skinner

To Glittervind, whose love I carry always:

Time bedevils us with trickery
Moments together vapourise
All to quickly
Moments spent apart
Crawl and lumber
Keeping us from each others arms
I search for you
Between the notes
Of my favourite songs
Sometimes I find you
Within the pages
Of my most teasured books
Whether it be the classics
Or modern verse
Philosophical tractatus
Or pulp detective novels
Some nights I discover you
Within the warming Cabernet Sauvignion
Or the amber clarity
Of whiskey soaked fevers
I find your smile
In the flickering TV screen
And hear your voice
In the hiss of the cinema speakers
But these are untrue moments
Mere substitute for the nights
We revel in each others caress
Nights like tonight will be
...Of that I have no doubt.

I Love You

See you tonight.

Top 5 CHOONS for this week:

The Coral: Dont Think You're The First
Placebo: The Bitter End
The Eighties Matchbox B-Line Disaster: Giant Bones
Pretty Girls Make Graves: Speakers Push The Air
The Veils: The Leavers Dance

Current reading: 'Women Who Run With The Wolves' by Clarissa Pinkola Estes.

Music TV moment of the week: despite my absolute indifference to the performer, George Michael's appearance on V Graham Norton in which he spoke of his anti-war/anti-Bush-Blair feelings, and his moving performance of Don McLean's The Grave, was quite exceptional.

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Positivity from the streets prt3

''Stop dreaming
People who say that are blaspheming
They're doing nine to five and moaning
And they don't want you succeeding when they'e blown it
And your idols- who are they?
They too dreamt about their day
Positive steps will see your goals.
Wether it's dollars or control, feel the gold.
I aint helping you climb the ladder
  I'm busy climbing mine.
That's how it's been since the dawn of time
  If you reach a cul-de-sac
The world turns it's back
This is your zone, it's like blackjack
He might get the ace or the top one
So organise your two's and three's into a run then you'll have fucked him son
And for that you'll be the better one
One last thing before you go though
When you feel better tommorow you'll be a hero
But never forget today. you could be back here
Things can stray
What if you see me in that window?
You won't help me I know.
That's cool, just keep walking where you go.
Carry on through the estate, stare at the geezers so they know you aint lightweight
And go see your mates
And when they don't look happy
Play them this tape

Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive''
                                        Mike Skinner

To Glittervind, who calms my anxieties with her smile:

Something has become very apparent
Our World has no material foundation
It doesn't exist here
Nor in any one place
It exists where ever we are together
It exists when our eyes drink each other in
When our lips meet
When our arms wrap and caress
When our bodies press imprints
Of each other into the other's flesh
When my skin is between your teeth
When my touch is inked upon your soul
Where ever we venture
Our World will be there
Waiting
Inviting us in
Keeping us safe from the nay-sayers
And the prying eyes
That choose to criticize
We stand accused of loving each other
I plead GUILTY
Wherever you go
I will follow you
Like the seagull
Follows the plough.

I Love You

Spent a rather troublesome night with Robyn. I couldn't settle properly, knowing she was in a state of distress. I woke several times during the night and ventured downstairs to check on her. I noticed she had bitten one of her stitches out, not a good sign, but no bleeding occured.
In the early morning I took her upstairs and allowed her to sleep on my bed which I dont usually do. This seemed to settle her a bit, and she began purring for the first time since returning from the vets. Her purring meant I drifted off for the first time properly all night.
When I awoke this morning, I went and purchased some flakes of smoked salmon(yeah, I know I spoil her), which she devoured gladly.
By mid-afternoon she was beginning to look more like her old self, and began playing with her toys again. All the while, Batman seemed totally unaffected by it all, he allready seems back to his old self. Guess men always get the easy end of the deal, huh?

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Positivity from the streets prt 2

''Feels nice and still
Good thing about brown is it always will
It's easy, no-one blames you
It's that world out there that's fucked you
You're no less of a person and if God exists
He still loves you
Just remember that - the more you sink the further back from that brink
Maybe you've lifetime scars and you think tattoos might be more fitting
But who's picking?
Searching for yourself you find demons
Try and be a freeman and grasp that talisman
Cos your the same as I am
We all need our fellow man
We all need our samaritan.
Maybe I'm better looking than you tho
Maybe I've got more dough - but am I happier... no.
Get the love of a good girl and your world will be much richer than my world
And your happiness will uncurl

Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive''
                              Mike Skinner

To Glittervind, my beautiful-eyed angel:

These nights when we are apart
Are not nights
But years
Centuries
Long, dark and dank
Without you my time passes in deep chill
You are the sun
That I rotate around
You are the moon
Who controls the tides of my emotions
You are the centre of my world
As we in turn become
The centre of the universe
When a star dies
And implodes to a black hole
The sound it makes
Is the sound of my heart
When it searches for you
In the darkness
The sound of raindrops falling on the ocean
Is the sound of my tears
When I upset you
By not understanding
or by being clumsy
I would project my dreams
On to a matt black sky
For in my dreams
We become alive
And unrestrained
Clothes are but a blindfold to the senses
Our eyes will be open tonight
Senses panchromatic
...Nectar on standby.

I Love You

See you tonight.

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I had to take Batman and Robyn to vets today for their operations(i.e. the snip and being dressed). I was originally against having such things done, but as they are male and female, the danger of them procreating is a very real one. So now I have two very dazed kittens looking very sorry for themselves.
As Robyn's operation was a far more major affair, she seems very out of sorts and wont let me handle her in any way. She also has two glaringly obvious stitches on her side. The area where she was operated on has been shaved and the skin dyed blue, so I have a very punk-rock looking kitten.

To Glittervind, the life that coarses through me:

Blank verse dispelling
Moments like that occur
Not because we have peaked
But because sometimes
The only words I can find to say
Are I love you
If it were possible to love you more
I would
But you sated and fulfilled
This heart many times over.
Those missing words of yours
Lost to the ether
It matters not that I will never hear them
Simply knowing they were there
Has this soul dancing on the lawn
Being carried shoulder high by friends
Like some giddy pirate.
When I injure myself
With almost comic regularity
Maybe my heart really is crying out to you
Bidding you near
Gentle hands
Soothing me with your touch
As you nurse my aching frame
With your shimmering delicate kisses

....Should you ever doubt it....

...I Love You

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Positivity from the streets...Part 1.

''Cos this world swallows souls
And when the blues unfold
It gets cold silence burns holes
You're going mad
Perhaps you always were
But when things was good you just didn't care
This is called irony
When you most need to get up you got no energy
Time and time shit'll happen
The dark shit's unwrapping
But no-one's listening your mates are laughing
Your brethren's fucking and then you start hating
Your stomach starts churning and you mind starts turning.
So smoke another draw
It won't matter no more but the next day still feels sore
Rain taps on your window
Always did tho but you didn't hear it when things were so-so
You're on your own now
Your little zone you were born alone and believe me you'll die alone
Weed becomes a chore
You want the buzz back so you follow the others onto smack

Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive
Just trying to stay positive''
                                Mike Skinner

To Glittervind, who soothes this aching existence:

Entrapped by words
Your verses snared me that fatefeul night
When you took that first deep breath
You inhaled me completely
I was yours eternally at that moment
And remain thus
When you measured my words with yours
You left nothing unsaid
I knew then that I had fallen
I left those words for you:
Si je tremble dans te bras
Si je soupire dans te cheveux
It was all I could find to say
Tremble and sigh
So many nights we have shared those feelings
Growing deeper and resilient
To the upset and obstacles
That threaten us
A granite surface encasing two exultant hearts.
Vivid memories
Of finding you at a deeper place
Across your heart I placed a smudge
Try
        It
              You
                  Might
                          Like
                                  It
Someone elses words, they may be
But I came to you with the truth
That day
And you gave me the treasure
Of the sweetest purest love
So long as I have you in this World
I am yours
Now
And always.

I Love You

See you tonight.

To Glittervind, my dreams embodied:

Senses heightened
When the love and dreams you offer
Reach me
Delirium sharpens
All feelings accentuate
Sometimes this love takes on a melancholic glow
A monochrome snapshot
Of a willow tree
Branches bend in arc
Penetrating the glacial mirror
Of a leaden lake
Curling leaves float upon the surface.
Your love surrounds me
Like the heady notes of John Coltrane
Heart-strings played by Mingus
Rhapsody in Azure
The dazzling light you have cast
Upon my darkened soul
Now this shadow that follows you
Is forever four footed.
The aroma of jasmine thickens
The dream-like air
That gives life to our passionate embraces
I brush the poppy seeds from your skin
And kiss your smile
I see your eyes in every tail-light fading
I hear your whispers in every daydream
Wrap those celestial wings around me
And we'll fly into the blanket of stars
Everything is brighter now...
...And I'm never coming down.

I Love You