So I had another nightmare last night. This time I met J, and I had to meet him at the 'home' he was staying in!!! TRUE! I was shocked when I saw him, he had big blue eyes and mousey hair, but was pale and ill-looking. He walked stooped over and had a mad expression, it was horrible. I couldn't believe this was the man I had all these feelings for and conversations with. He looked at me with big sad eyes and didn't even know who I was. I then took him away from that place (it was like an institution) and tried to talk to him, but he wouldn't. He didn't want to communicate with me.

Also I found his diary on this site (in the dream lol) and was reading this stuff he'd written, but I can't remember whether it was rantings or good.

Damn I could so do with some chocolate....

xx