God. I don't know what to think. I feel like a little piece in somebody's game. I'm stuck between 2 people. I can't even explain it. Just to say someone is lying to me. There's good reasons why both should, and also neither. I'm getting really sick of it. I can't even phone him to confront him and talk it through like adults, as he won't give me his number. That seems to tell me something.

But why would he be doing this to me? What does he gain? I know scorpios like fucking with people for attention and to give themselves some feeling of control, but this is ridiculous. I'm so glad I kept my guard up. I always expected this to happen, and now it has. He expects this faithful devotion to him, and I'm not going to give it. The little he has promised so far either hasn't happened or has taken ages. I don't know why he even bothered getting to know me, it's obvious he wants some pathetic little female, and I'm CERTAINLY not it.

Why would she be doing this? She wants her man back. She feels hurt and probably a little humiliated. Of course she's going to attack me. However everything she says rings true. She's telling me that he's been saying everything I feared he was. So again it's all fucking up big time.

There must be someone out there who can love me. I'm not a bad person, I have lots of friends, men seem to find me attractive, people think I'm funny. Why does nobody want me? I don't want to be alone anymore. I want to share my life with somebody, if only on a casual level.