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Saturday October 25, 08

nihilism knocking

05:59 PM

My life is half over. Now this may not be a big deal to you. But it is a big deal to me.

I am frightened of the thought of becoming nothingness--the status I will acquire at death.

Death teases and taunts me daily. Thinking about death has become a habit--a compulsion. And I really don't know how to give it up.

Being an atheist is painful at times. Immortality sounds like a better deal than nothingness. But Heaven, Nirvana, and reincarnation are lies we tell ourselves because the idea of becoming nothing is simply and utterly unfair.

If I were able to believe in something despite how implausible it might be, then I would. But I can't. This is my burden.

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  • Think of it this way...There is enough energy in the human body to power an entire city for nearly a month straight. I believe when we die our energy is still here. I don't know how you feel about the paranormal, but that is how a spirit can manifest - through energy and through electricity. I realize by saying "our energy is still here" isn't very enticing considering how life on earth is unbearable at times (and we all want to believe there is a better place), BUT it is better than "nothingness".

    I'm like you in that I think a lot about death - I always have. I once told this to a psychiatrist I was seeing, and he said it was a good thing that I spent time thinking about mortality because he thought it would make me more determined to LIVE. I understood what he was saying, but I could never understand why he couldn't see how the very idea of death and, at the time, really wanting to die, caused much anxiety and disquietude in my life, therefore intensifying my depression...

    Anway, perhaps that is why I believe in the paranormal. Which is fine because I've got loads of people I'm willing to haunt ;P

    hand in glove -- Sunday October 26 2008, @11:13AM (#313423)
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    "Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together" - Marilyn Monroe
  • "To Fear death, is no other than to think oneself wise when one is not, to think one knows what one does not know. No one knows. No one knows whether death may not be the greatest of blessings for a man, yet men fear it as if they knew that is the greatest of evils. And surely it is the most blameworthy ignorance to believe that one knows what one does not know."

    -Plato,The Apology Socrates", In Death

    This is how I see it.
    (I do not know for a fact.)

    And if there is a God well he surely is making it difficult for any of us to understand. If there is a God, Well I am sure he/she understands why I would not know for a "fact" that he is a real being that created us and everything around us.

    Yet, I see that every human being is so unique no matter what there circumstance is. Each and every one of us is very special and have the same energy of life in us as the person closest to me.

    I'd rather see it this way. That I am made to live, Obviously, For I am here and alive.. oh very alive and I shall have to live until I am at least 90! I hope.. I hope I can grow old very gracefully..
    I want to see my kids have their families so I feel I am in such a fortunate position in this life, no matter what.
    I now have to try my best.. Only because I really do not know for a fact what is going to happen to me when I do, Die.

    So Lets just try OUR Individual best,
    to make the best of this life
    while we have it.
    For we not know what will truly happen to us when we do die.
    I would hate to find out that this was a privileged given to me so I could make my next life better than it is now.
    Or I hope that it can only get better.
    Sorry and I hope you can possibly understand me.
    Figure out your feeling now.. and how you should be taking advantage of them now Or even learn to dominate your feeling..
    We hate we laugh we cry we FEEL.. Oh and there are soooo many more felling that we all have internally.
    See we need all these different feelings.

    I wish you the best of life and living..

    Marisela -- Sunday October 26 2008, @08:23PM (#313429)
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