My family had some terrible news a few days ago, my uncle J who has been fighting cancer for a year now, was rushed to hospital, he passed away at 11:50 yesterday morning. He wasn't my mother's brother, he was my mother's cousin, but i always just called him my uncle. he was close to everyone in the family.
it really hasnt sunk in for me yet. i'm just kind of numb and shocked. he didn't smoke, barely drank, kept fit, and was the most kindest sweetest man.
I pay my respects here for uncle J, i hope he's at peace now.

MF

xxxxx

afterall
i am my best friend
i will never let me down

i just kinda put my neck out for her
i just kinda of care about her
i just kinda always be there for her
i just kinda forgive her everything
i just kinda am a doormat to shit on.

who have i got in this life?

dear god help me, i'm so fucking lonely

Not in this case.
Not with me.
ysterday was not a good day, infact it was quite awful.I'd been up half the night crying and panicking, convinced in my heart of hearts that my time to go was soon.
So i didn't go to college, i caught up on some sleep.
later on......
Still feleing delicate i decided to take a trip to the local net cafe, maybe talk to friend, distract myself from my misery.
Said hi to 'best friend'
the response?
'if your having such a trippy day, why are you online?
obviously i didn't react well and told her in very polite terms btw (no seriously) that i didnt appreciate being questioned on a subject that was very sore, and the way i felt was very very real.
she told me to fuck off after i told her that yes she did sound like a bitch, like she warned me should would. As if that made it ok.
i started to cry.
cryung in front of strangers like an idiot.
so that's it, i'm just vile.
she's not.
end of.

who needs enemies huh?

hello i am Magick elf aka poor urchin

:)