I totally failed my Maths exam today, so I'm kinda gutted. Should have spent more time studying maths than thinking about C, eh? Oh bugger it, I can't help it...

I bought her a Valentine's card today. Oh yes. The only thing was, it was out of a newsagents instead of an actual card shop, so the quality is not that great. It has a pink envelope, and two little bears on the front. On the front, it says "Especially for you, Valentine", and in the inside it says "I could never miss...A chance like this...To let you know...I love you so! Happy Valentine's Day" I added my own little things to it. It says "To C - Beauty can't be spelled without U in it!", then below that it has a little personal message, saying "I know it's not a lot, but it's just a little something to show I care about you!" I then added "Loads of Love, JacquesTheLad xx". All together now...Aw...

Yeah well, it will be a good little thing to give her if I actually get the chance. Apparently, she's coming into work tomorrow to just see me. Well, I'm sure she's coming in for another reason primarily, but that sounds good enough for my ears to hear. So, I have it planned. Should she not be coming to dinner with me (which I'm more or less resigned to), I shall try and nip to my locker with her with nobody watching, and hand her over a plastic bag, with her card and her Hoopy The Huddle Hound in it. I'll say to her not to say anything, just to take it back through to the shop floor, and she can talk to me about it there. Then, I'll explain to her, in no uncertain terms, that she's been the only girl - in fact, more or less the only thing - that I've been thinking about over the past few weeks. Then, I'll go about in my defeatest attitude. I'll say something along the lines of "Well, I like you as a bit more than a friend, but I guess you don't like me in that way, but I just had to tell you." Something like that.

So, it'll all be over tomorrow. The torture will come to a climax. Then, we shall just be tortured with the fact (as opposed to the reckoning, which is the stage we are at just now) that I can't have her. Sigh...

Here's a little funny for today. Remember the guy that gave her the rose? Well, The Smiths once had a song called "The Boy With The Thorn In His Side". A good song, gracing the British Top 40. If I had my way however, this guy would be "The Boy With The Thorns Up His Arse". Wahey! Took me a couple of days to come up with that one, but it was worth it, I'm sure you'll agree. Sadly I got the song wrong last night, it was "Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now" sadly. However, it was quite ironic - just thinking about C, and what song comes on the radio? "It Must Be Love", by Madness. Actually, I'm sure it was just played because Valentine's Day is nearing (why does everyone make such a big fuss about it?), but anyway.

Anyway, I think that's about it. No doubt my next entry will be full of heartbreak. Goodbye for now. Love is natural and real...