I've been trying to get on here for the past couple of days (is my life sad? Read on and find out...), but it seems the server was down, so I haven't had the chance to wish you all a Happy New Year. So here it is now - HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Hope it's a great one for you all.
Ah well, my New Year...On New Year's Eve, I stayed in with family until midnight, celebrated the New Year with them (what's to celebrate? It's just another second in our lives, yet we all get so worked up about it...), then went out to this party. Boy, it blowed. 6 people my age there, I'd have been better staying in the house. J was there, but she started causing fights with the girl that cheated with her boyfriend just before I was leaving. I bit my tongue and said nothing, but everybody was commenting on how I wasn't having a great time. I wonder why?

Anyway, last night was a bit better. I went to my friend's house for a mini-party type thing. The girl that was being verbally abused the previous evening was there, and talking about it, and started back on J. So much for a new beginning. I really thought 2002 would be a bit better. That those two could get on with their own lives, but they seem to be obsessed with pulling each other down. J sent me a message to my phone, telling me she was close to tears. I was going to reply saying that she started it, so what did she expect, but I didn't. It would be cruel, and not in my nature. I'm just sick of those two arguing with each other like cat and dog. Really, there's now a division within our year, and I'm stuck in the middle. I don't care. If either party decides to talk to me about it, I'm not going to talk to them. I'll blatantly ignore them, and if they ask why, I'll say "because it's not my mess. Sort it yourself."

Really, this year my resolution is to be a bit more selfish. Which is a poor one, but understand it: the main reason for me being depressed last year was their bitterness towards each other, and with me in the middle I had to listen to both sides spitting out vile emotions towards the other. So, I'm not going to take it this year. I'm going to concentrate on my own problems, and the problems of others.

Anyway, back to the party! Took a little detour there...Apart from the fighting over the phone, the party was good. I drank Budweiser all night, and came home around 1:30. Some people there were playing a sex game - I opted out of it as I didn't fancy losing a few items of clothing... :-) I was an interested onlooker...

It's amazing how, actually, being in the company of people you don't know is, more often than not, more interesting than being in the company of people you usually hang around with, isn't it? Maybe that's just one of my stupid thoughts that gets batted around my head...

I woke at 1pm today, and I'm still not washed. Which is so dirty, but I can't be bothered doing anything. I did a bit of my Maths homework, but I quickly gave up on that. it can keep. Working 4-8 tomorrow, so that should be fun, seeing all the beautiful girls in work :-)

I'm getting into a strange music phase at the moment. I got the Feeder album from my friend for Christmas, and I must say it is absolutely amazing! OK, they might not be the most talented band around, or the best singers, or whatever, but the songs are really uplifting whilst being thought-provoking! I'd recommend downloading a few Feeder songs to our American/European/South American audience, whilst I'd recommend Echo Park to our British crew. Even if you don't like them, give that album a try. You won't be disappointed.

Ah well. Hand in Glove - What a wonderful experience that must have been at the Athenaeum concert! I can't imagine one of my favourite band's lead singers just coming up and sitting next to me! I'd be a nervous wreck! And hey, you'll get Mr Kano next time, don't worry! Maybe even a date in it for you...? :-) I look forward to the e-mail.

DWGT - I hope I've answered your New Year posers above! One cool party, a few cute girls, none attainable. Who knows, maybe in the words of Semisonic, "This Will Be My Year". I won't hold my breath though. Ah well, we shall see in the year ahead. I can only do my best, can do no better, and if that's not enough, then so be it. Hope 2002 is good for you love!

Biffo - Hope your next question's a corker! And did you watch I Love the 1980s on New Year's Eve? I just turned it on, and Panic started ringing out! I hope the individual year ones come back on the screens as far as the 80s, because The Smiths were on one of them, weren't they? What year? 1983?

BWTT - I apologise wholeheartedly for forgetting your birthday! Hope you had a good one (looks like you got a good present, with Aberdeen beating my mob...). Fancy meeting up for a drink some time? :-)

BlueGirl - You're very sweet :-) I hope you had a bunch of fun in NYC. I'm not sure if I'm meeting with my Morrissey friend now though, haven't heard from her in a while, but hopefully it will take place some time soon!

Sleepwalk - No problem, you're very welcome and I hope the rollercoaster ride that is the Moz-solo journal system is kind to you! God, I need to go for a lie down :-) I'm glad you care much more about your love for friends than the longing for one person. It's easy to fall into that trap, but I think I feel the same way too now. It's the right way, because you'll get too hurt if you focus it all on one person. I should know...

Anyway, to the rest, I hope 2002 is very kind to you, and hopefully we'll be there in the end...