Sleep

So here I am It` s 1:50 in the morning.I`m wide awake.:eek:It`s my day to be up.I have a weird sleeping schedule.I only sleep every other day.I wish I could sleep like a normal person.My sister told me you need to_ (fill in the blanks) like a normal person.I told her that ship sailed long ago.:crazy:

Right now I totally feel like cutting myself or burning myself.I don`t know what I`m going to do when I leave here.I have to do it sometimes it`s the only way I have peace sometimes.I know that sounds odd.:confused:I guess that`s also why I wish I could sleep more.I usually cut or hurt myself late at night.Maybe if I slept more I wouldn`t feel the need to do that.I just need to rest sometimes:sleeping::sleeping: you know.My brain just won`t let me do it.If I didn`t take my meds I would never sleep at all.I`ve gone up to two days without sleep it just feels so awful.Sometimes on the days I can`t sleep I lie awake staring at the ceiling just trying to turn off my thoughts.It` just horrible.:eek:


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Lying There And Staring At The Ceiling Waiting For A Sleepy Feeling

~The Beatles~

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tibby there are some skills one should use when one has the urge to cut themself (eating or sucking on sth very spicy or sour, ice cold shower or head into the cold water, thinking actions like calculating etc).run across the block or run on the spot if you cant move that much or shadowboxing to let off the emotional steam or..
http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Cutting-Yourself
 
timeisaclockoftheheart;bt183 said:
'Little light shining,
Little light will guide them to me.
My face is all lit up,
My face is all lit up.
If they find me racing white horses,
They'll not take me for a buoy.

Let me be weak,
Let me sleep
And dream of sheep.

"Come here with me now."

Oh, I'll wake up
To any sound of engines,
Ev'ry gull a seeking craft.
I can't keep my eyes open--
Wish I had my radio.

I tune in to some friendly voices
Talking 'bout stupid things.
I can't be left to my imagination.

Let me be weak,
Let me sleep
And dream of sheep.

Ooh, their breath is warm
And they smell like sleep,
And they say they take me home.
Like poppies heavy with seed
They take me deeper and deeper.'

What can I say? Lovely as always.Beautiful really.:flowers:
 
sistasheila;bt186 said:
tibby there are some skills one should use when one has the urge to cut themself (eating or sucking on sth very spicy or sour, ice cold shower or head into the cold water, thinking actions like calculating etc).run across the block or run on the spot if you cant move that much or shadowboxing to let off the emotional steam or..
http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Cutting-Yourself

Thank you Sistasheila.:)

I know I should try those things when the urge hits me.I will try.Thank you again for your suggestions.

Tibby:)
 
First of all, let me state the obvious. :straightface:
You are not alone in being unable to sleep many nights, Tibby. :o
I try to take consolation in this, but yeah, those times home alone at night are exactly why I fell into drugs. :eek:
But hey, I have been clean almost 6 months now and you know what?
Those horrible, not sleeping nights still come.
And hell, since I have 0 privacy, I cannot even try to use masturbation to fall asleep, not that such really works anyways, just leads to feeling even more sad and depressed after. :straightface:
But sometimes sleep does come, only sometimes.
However, recently I have tried doing some simple yoga when I cannot sleep.
And guess what!?
So far its working, maybe it can for you as well...
 
Oh my god said:
First of all, let me state the obvious. :straightface:
You are not alone in being unable to sleep many nights, Tibby. :o
I try to take consolation in this, but yeah, those times home alone at night are exactly why I fell into drugs. :eek:
But hey, I have been clean almost 6 months now and you know what?
Those horrible, not sleeping nights still come.
And hell, since I have 0 privacy, I cannot even try to use masturbation to fall asleep, not that such really works anyways, just leads to feeling even more sad and depressed after. :straightface:
But sometimes sleep does come, only sometimes.
However, recently I have tried doing some simple yoga when I cannot sleep.
And guess what!?
So far its working, maybe it can for you as well...

Thanks Robby.I just might try that.I was doing yoga for a little while.And I did find it did help my head.Thanks again.
 

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