Life has been hard these past few years. Well, life hasn`t been easy since I was in my twenties, and I was first becoming ill. Maybe I was ill before but didn`t recognize it as such. Mental illness has taken so much from me. I`ve never been married or had children or even had something you would call a relationship. I`ve never been able to have a job or career. I dropped out of college when I got sick. I tried to return a few times, but it never worked out. I`m getting older and I worry about my future.
Life is even harder now because of my Mom`s disease. She is slowly losing her mobility. She will have to start using a wheelchair when we take her out because we are afraid of her falling down. She was always a very independent person, and she misses driving most of all. She also has other symptoms that hurt her. She does not deserve this. Now my sisters and my dad have become caregivers. My aunt helps out three times a week which helps us. I love my Mom very much and would do anything for her. It`s so difficult to see her illness progress and watch her get worse.
I`m finding less and less to look forward to. Life just seems to be passing me by and I`m getting older and older and I don`t have much to show for my existence. I watch my sisters with their children which are mostly grown up and I feel so sad that I will never know what it`s like to have children. I do love my nieces and nephews and if they were my own though.
Now I just exist and have nothing to show for it. Life just feels sad and hopeless right now.
Life is even harder now because of my Mom`s disease. She is slowly losing her mobility. She will have to start using a wheelchair when we take her out because we are afraid of her falling down. She was always a very independent person, and she misses driving most of all. She also has other symptoms that hurt her. She does not deserve this. Now my sisters and my dad have become caregivers. My aunt helps out three times a week which helps us. I love my Mom very much and would do anything for her. It`s so difficult to see her illness progress and watch her get worse.
I`m finding less and less to look forward to. Life just seems to be passing me by and I`m getting older and older and I don`t have much to show for my existence. I watch my sisters with their children which are mostly grown up and I feel so sad that I will never know what it`s like to have children. I do love my nieces and nephews and if they were my own though.
Now I just exist and have nothing to show for it. Life just feels sad and hopeless right now.
