ah it's caramelized! that's why i like it so much! oh so you drink it with coffee! oh gerrit, you are so learned! so do you mix it with coffee or just drink it alongside coffee? should i be starting my mornings with a coffee and grand marnier to go with my pop tarts? i feel like i should probably take up drinking. it's not that i want to or that i feel any need to, rather it's a decision based on logic. you see(!), i have a horrible life--horrible job, and am surrounded constantly by horrible people, etc. but im the type of person that forgets pain after it's subsided. physical, emotional, mental, whatever. so that by the time a painful experience is over with, im of the mindset that "that was sort of fun!" and am ready for another. in this way, my grievances are never validated, being as they are forgotten. you might think this is a good thing but i am also the sort of person who likes to feel afflicted by grievances, to be occupied by them, to dwell on them. forgetting about them makes me feel cheated out of them. so if i act like i have to self medicate, by drinking, then i will be constantly aware that there's something i am self medicating for. in that way, i will always be aware of my constantly aggrieved state and will never just push it off in favour of thinking everything is dandy, like a f***ing simpleton would. i will be drinking as a reality check. makes sense right? i have to say, im pretty proud of myself to have ascended to this level of sophisticated thinking that i've worked out that drinking is the best thing i can possibly do under the circumstances. i feel like this is the beginning of a truly adult life.
You can mix it with coffee like you do with the Irish Coffee. But certainly not the Grand Marnier.
But I would advise against that.
I like the change, the variety of having a sip of the coffee and one from the beverage.
But you can find out yourself or course.
I know what you mean with the horrible job and things in life making you miserable.
Most people are not very happy with their jobs but many are able to push that feeling away and to balance it they search for enjoyment in the rare timeslots that they are free.
I know you have a talent for writing.
Maybe you experience the unhappy sides of life so much more strongly.
You know the saying, an unhappy childhood is a writers goldmine.
Why would it be restricted to childhood?
And some people have a longer lasting childhood then others.
You could try, just for yourself to write "it" all down and get some satisfaction out of it cause you have that talent and phantasy. It can work as a therapy, as a byproduct. Try different forms of writing. Poems, essays, short stories, novels.
Many people don't get in to that thinking and writing in detail as you do cause they tend to be preoccupied with all the very boring but necessary things of daily life. You have talent for fantasy and to focus on that as you already do can have a satisfying effect and pushing away that miserable feeling, I believe.
Just exploit it.
And now forget about my amateur psycho babble, it's just that I like you and am a bit concerned!
Please don't overdo it with the liquor Rifke!