NSAM refers to the life of a "twisted, ugly child" who can get close to love only dreaming. at some point of her life she cried: "Jesus made me so,
Jesus save me from pity, sympathy and people discussing me".
She focused on Jesus asking him to fix her situation since he made her so. because of her uglyness no one dares to kiss her, even if the lghts were out. She was hostage to the wheelchair. Assuming she can feel love, it's pretty easy to me to find a connection with a character of IHFJ. it's the same one, just older.
Imagine her at the deathbed thinking of her empty life, starting from her childhood were she wouldn't do no harm to anyone but Jesus hurt her with all the desire he placed in her when there was nothing she could do with this desire and no one she could turn to with her love. Then the end, with the final, powerfull question addressed to him: "Why did you stick me in self deprecating bones and skin? Jesus do you hate me? Do you hate me?"
how about that?