You're not right in the head, And nor am I, And …
Yeah, it's exactly the opposite of urging him to come out.
"There's always time to change, son"
(Dad,)I've ‘changed’, but I'm in pain
heart breaking lyric, makes me think of a Ian Curtis lyric ...
‘Mother, I tried please believe me
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm ashamed of the things I've been put through
I'm ashamed of the person I am’