This post is long over due. It is my blog, so I can say what I wish. And I wish to say what is on my mind regarding my relationship with CrystalGeezer (CG from here out.)
I don't know if there is such a thing as yin and yang. But if there is, then it manifests in these forums. If CG is the yang, I am the yin. And vice versa. They say opposites attract. But they also repel--think two magnets. We are opposite in so many crucial ways.
It really is a dichotomy in personality. She IS a thorn in my side. But this is not necessarily a bad thing. Yes, I find her to be annoying and obnoxious and crass and crude and butch and immature and low rent and irrational and delusional and cruel and a liar and manipulative and vindictive and obese and unattractive, and uneducated about things I find important to be versed in. And she is constantly following me around the forums like a stalker--a stalker with a mission to poke holes in me--my personhood, my arguments, my opinions, my views, my values, my likes, my dislikes. Nothing I do or say goes unchallenged. This is annoying as hell. And borders on abuse. Any highly sensitive person would have exited Solo long ago. But I am not that person.
Why do I not only tolerate but seem to nurture her behavior at times? Give in to it? Even walk into her traps willingly? Because, all her poking and prodding sometimes keeps me on my toes, if I am to be honest. It can challenge me to make the best case for my positions. Make me question my views. Defend them. This is not always a bad thing, because two things can come about as result of being challenged. It can help to reinforce and strengthen my postilions. Or, make me rethink them. And I am often wrong. And am willing to admit it when I am. Either way, this is a good thing. So this thorn, which is CG, is an irritant. But it can also be an eustressor, not just a distressor. It is all how I choose to see it.