Success is the Only Revenge I Seek

By realitybites · Jun 13, 2015 · ·
  1. I am not superstitious and I certainly think Karma is bunk. But something makes me hesitate shouting at the top of my lungs, "life is good," out of fear that I will jinx myself—that the hubris police will come cracking down and put me back in my miserable place. Maybe I am simply not used to success. It feels different. I feel vulnerable. Could I lose it all in a moment's notice?

    I should feel I deserve this chance at greatness. Haven't I suffered enough? I don't want to be a victim anymore. I honestly believe as long as you take on that role you will be limited. You can't be a winner and a loser at the same time. Attitude is everything. Letting go of grudges and past hurts is essential. What was, is no longer so. Move the fuck on.

    For the first time in a very long time I have financial security, nice clothes, a great apartment, a car that is paid for, serenity, a great relationship with my mother and son, and a future. I really will be going to England soon. And to Spain—a foodie's paradise.

    If I go to England, who will I go with? Where will I stay? For how long? What cities will I visit? In the end will I be better off for going or just a little lighter on the cash?

    I want to call my sister. I want her to be proud of my accomplishments. But I am not sure the news would be received well. Instead of being happy for me, I gather she may feel a hint of competitiveness and envy. It shouldn't be that way. I really wish it wasn't.

    And so, there it is, I am happy, thriving, intellectually stimulated and fulfilled, busy, and can't wait to go back to work on Monday. I really love what I do now—for the first time, really. I think I found my calling—for now at least.

    Success is the only revenge I seek.

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  1. My Only Weakness

    clever clogs, there you go again!
    Yes, glasses in the air, be usptanding please, for the right honourable writers brigade!!
    hey ya'll.
  2. No1uno
    And if I seem a little strange, well that's because I am. :lbf:
  3. realitybites
    I wear blue on the outside 'cause blue is how I feel on the inside. :p
  4. No1uno
    Ms. Reality, You'd better just watch that sweet sass mouth of yours. Any more talk like this and you'll have to immediately head to ulta for some blue blush and eyeshadow.

    Hello Ms weakness. In my absence I'm developing strength beyond measure.

    Violeta, hand raised in toast, welcome, we await to hear the adventure of your travels.


    We are all "bruised internally, eternally", but that does not take away life, it adds the flavor of the feast.
  5. realitybites
    Indeed! I brought Champagne. And you?
  6. realitybites
    Why thank you darlin'. :)
  7. My Only Weakness
    Violeta too!!
    Hello Everybody!
    It's like a blogger reunion!
  8. Violeta
    "hubris police"

    I like that, haha!

    "darling, please don't make me call the hubris police on you..."

    More power to you, life is to be lived :)
  9. realitybites
    I love the way your mind works. And your sense of humor. :)
  10. realitybites
    Now that's a movie I'd pay to see! :D