Life, Family

  1. Metaphorically Speaking

    I am not a long distance runner; I am a sprinter. While not so successful with time-devoted tasks and commitments, I'm your woman when it comes to fast and spontaneous. I'll get it done now and quickly. Chaos? No problem. Crisis? It will be dealt with. Want steady and predictable? Ask someone else.
  2. Could It Be?

    Has the Internet lost it's novelty? Am I no longer addicted to the allure of seemingly endless websites to visit and information banks to raid? Has it finally become predictable, repetitive, and redundant? Has anything new and exciting tickled my fancy in the last six months? After building my website, setting up a facebook account, creating insane amounts of digital imagery to load into a flickr account, authoring an eBook, and mastering the art of email, BitTorrent, and Craigslist, I feel...
  3. Angry women

    What happens when a jaded, middle aged woman who is sexually frustrated and feeling powerless about the course of her own life gets stuck in a shared environment with people she cannot bend to her will? She will break them instead. With all her soul crushing might, she will throw her poisoned arrows into their sweet and fragile hearts, either extinguishing their life centers immediately, or more than likely, leave gaping, weeping wounds that allow their life's blood to slowly, painfully run...
  4. Looking Back on 2011

    What happened this year? Watched lots of movies and read a ton of books. Moved twice. Spent a great amount of time with my son David. Had a quality four day visit in Sedona with my parents. Reconnected with my sister. Almost started a new romantic relationship... glad I didn't. Spent a good deal of time immersed in existentialist angst at the beginning of the year then just sort of snapped out of it about six months ago. Had a great reconnection with my Dad. Came to realize that...
  5. How Quaint

    I share a five-bedroom home with one other person. Between us, we have exactly one TV. It sits on a ledge in front of the fireplace in the family room. It has been turned on zero times since I have lived here. It’s actually my housemate’s TV. Mine is in storage. Neither of our televisions is worth a darn. His looks like it were manufactured in 1967. Mine isn’t much better. Obviously we don’t subscribe to cable. Though we may get cable Internet next month. Right now we have a satellite...
  6. Gates of Heaven

    Gates of Heaven, have you seen it? It's a great documentary made in 1978 by Errol Morris--same guy who gave us The Fog of War: Eleven Lessons from the Life of Robert S. McNamara (2003). Gates of Heaven begins by introducing us to a couple characters who have opened Los Altos Foothill Pet Cemetery near Napa Valley, CA. Mostly they're in it 'cause they love their pets and hate the idea of our beloved companion animals being rendered into tallow after death. They're all heart. Unfortunately...
  7. Free and Clear

    Scroll down for 5/13/02 update. I am in a good place. A goal that I set for myself this last January has just materialized. I am now living alone once again in my own space. No more roommates to contend with. I can’t begin to tell you how happy and peaceful I feel. I truly didn’t believe this change would happen so quickly. I feel pleased with myself for taking the initiative to make it possible. I am now living in a new city—the fourth one in two years. Each time I have moved, I have...
  8. Rules of Begging

    Police log for Flagstaff AZ, July 14, 2012.: "A 49-year-old homeless man was arrested for panhandling on Thursday and booked into the Coconino County Detention Facility. An officer in plainclothes was walking in the area of Humphreys Street and Butler Avenue when he was approached by a homeless man. The two spoke for several minutes before the man asked the officer if he could spare some change, a police report said. The officer asked the man how much and he replied "two bucks for food."...
  9. Vulnerable

    Intimacy. Someone once told me that intimacy is in-to-me-you-see. You would think a blog is by it's very nature a platform for sharing intimate feelings and thoughts. But more often than not, it is actually a wall that separates self from world. It is a carefully controlled construct, a barrier to intimacy. If I tell you how I think before you ask, then you don't get to frame the question. It's overcoming objections before they arise. However, I now want to share something personal. I...
  10. Life is a Moving Train

    My emotions are all over the map at the moment. I feel excited with anticipation. I feel worried about a friend. I feel embarrassed for being ignorant. Life. It is a fast moving train. The scenery can, and does, change on a dime. Nothing stays the same. Nothing is permanent. Things come and go. And things pass. It is out of our control. So we might as well just try to enjoy the ride.
  11. Cuyahoga

    Before Sedona, there was Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio. The Cuyahoga River runs through my old city. Below are some pics of my son and I at the Gorge Metro Park in Cuyahoga Falls. It was practically in my back yard. I miss a lot of things about Ohio. But honestly, I don't miss shoveling snow. Cuyahoga by R.E.M. is about my old river. Let's put our heads together and start a new country up Our father's father's father tried, erased the parts he didn't like Let's try to fill it in, bank the quarry...
  12. The Passing of Time

    In just a few weeks, it will be eight years since I started my blog at Solo. I really can't believe I stayed committed to writing in it for all these years. In 2011, my blog was published as a book in both electronic and print formats. But much of what had been written in the earlier years didn't make the cut. So over the next two weeks, I am going to recycle some of my older posts. The first one I'd like to share is from November 2, 2007--five years ago. The second one is from September...
  13. Passions

    Continuing with the reissue, repackage theme... these posts are about passions... This one is from June 19, 2005... Today that list would also include Christopher Hitchens, atheism, eBooks, and Photoshop... and a very recent addition would be discovering/being turned on to new music. This one is from February 6, 2007... I still struggle with tolerance. I can take most people in small doses... but... and I'm sure they'd say the same about me. This one is from August 12, 2006......
  14. Fleeting Landscapes

    Flashback, post number four and last one. These blog entries center around the little things in life and those fleeting moments... What is more fleeting than a sunrise? Taken outside my apartment on the early morning of November 2, 2012. The first one is from March 26, 2005... I still love The Cure. And have been listening to them a lot over the last few weeks. This one is from November 23, 2006... Fleeting moments... still grateful for so many things. Time changes the scenery, but...
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