Blog Entries from No1uno

  1. No one

    A normal day. It is late afternoon and I am getting my workout in. The music is blaring and I am pumped. I feel very strong. In between benchpress sets, John Denver's song, "No One" comes on. Maybe one of the saddest songs I know. The songs ending verse is belted out in a desperate and urgent plea. I am stunned into a tearful reminiscence on the bench. Oh, my young life had lived this song so many times. "I came into this lovely city About three weeks ago today And I've been trying to...
  2. Love letter

    I just composed a long love letter to my wife. In summary, I am grateful she came into my life. When thinking about my life and then documenting it, there is a tinge of sadness with the awareness that so many people can't see what to be grateful for in their lives. That they may not experience life the way I do. I will note though, I do not feel guilt for this as it has been my decisions and hard work that brought me to here. My life has included incredible suffering on many different...
  3. They will wake up yawn and kill you (not really)

    As my kids get older, I find they have their own thirst for their own hard earned wisdom. My wife and I can prevent so many failings for them if they just blindly followed ours. But is that really giving them wisdom. I truly don't think so. I understand the young adult process that you have to reject wisdom to forge your own. I am not at all offended and understand. Nothing crazy, just the weird look when you state your knowledge to them. It is always a conversation. No one has ever stormed...
  4. Rusty, leave your sister alone

    I'm a couple days away from a month off traveling with the family. I keep a map box in the attic. Pulled it out to grab some state maps we will be wandering around before we head overseas. It was a mess so I started organizing the box. I was suprprised as I had never really reflected on just how much ground we have covered since the kids were born. We have camped at or visited these national parks, national monuments and rec areas (I know I must be missing some maps of other ones we've...
  5. Little man, now

    I feel I'm getting closer and closer to my son. He is such a great teenager. We just got done with dinner at a bayside restaurant on Saturday night. We decided to go for a walk along the water to settle the food. The conversations we have are getting so deep. As his dad, I am very close to him. I consciously make sure each day we hug and check in about how our days went. He is handling growing up very well. He is caring and thoughtful. I really like him as a person a lot, not just because...
  6. My bloody maniac whiplash

    My children are very musical. My daughter is a lyric driven listener and my son is a instrumental driven listener. I have surreal moments where I recognize through experience that I am close to my kids on a many levels. The gym has brought on some of these surreal moments. Today while I was listening to this soundtrack, I thought of some of them. Bye the way, this album is soooooooo good. I had put together a sound system for the gym. I'm not an audiophile person but just a little research...
  7. Trouble will find me

    6pm Wednesday, on a grey moist evening. Our kids are doing homework in the next room. My wife and I are doing our workouts together. It feels so calm, peaceful and right. I sit between sets silently. The National album -Trouble Will Find Me, is softly filling every corner of the room. I am immersed in an experience. I am unable to properly explain it. We have expanded the gym.
  8. Now it's happening in mine

    "I've seen this happen in other people's lives and now it's happening in mine", - it can go both ways, both good and bad, I have had both. We went out to dinner last night. It was cool and crisp outside. I mentioned to my son and daughter that I had a wonderful time with them. That I valued it because we never know what will happen (they got my inference that I'm older and time is different for us). I was extremely grateful. It was an amazing day with the family. Earlier in the afternoon my...
  9. Christmas postcards

    Today we had our weekly family meeting. I brought up, when are we going to have our atrocious Christmas sweater night. We were unanimous that it should be tonight. We batted around the ideas of how we would mix it up. The funnier and more corny the better. The gym was the kids idea for the Christmas postcard. I hope everyone here has a good holiday season. We have ups and we have lows. Make the best of the time we are allowed here. Time do as I wish.
  10. Butterflies

    The ups and downs and the one who rides the wave with you. At this stage of the game for me, you have to know and bare your soul. Take the small moments in which to express yourself, state your needs, ask for theirs and make a commitment to meet in the middle. Sometimes it's very easy, sometimes it's very hard. A constant process. One that has worked well for us. With our kids like little adults now, my wife and I are exploring a new side of our relationship. Not really new, but one that was...
  11. Bruised internally, eternally

    I believe we all carry a little bit of this. As a young Morrissey fan, I believe it was my prerequisite. This is a deeper feeling of the world. A sensitivity that cannot be quenched with a mere juveniles take on the human condition. Some people are well versed on the nuance of a persons inside. If you have never been or are neither bruised internally or eternally, then my hat is off to you. This is not something that is worn on your sleeve. It is imperceptible to the world in which you...
  12. Spent the day on the range

    A good friend called me and asked me to go out and shoot a rifle match with him. It has been a few years so I grabbed all my gear and had a wonderful day with several people I haven't seen in a few years. I took my M1 Garand as he said it was an old school bunch. Highpower is such a mind fuck. Pulling it all together standing/sitting/prone. It is so focused and so relaxed at the same time. That is the key, balancing those to personal perfection. I am not in the pic One of the ways...
  13. Spent the day in SFMOMA

    In the ongoing series of "spent the day in", you know....... while the workers were enslaved...... I spent the day with my daughter at SFMOMA. She had asked to see an exhibit by a photographer. We had cameras in hand and enjoyed a day at the museum.
  14. Spent the day in the gym

    My daughter and I began our workout today with my proclamation that Morrissey has a new song out. We usually play music from my phone through a Bluetooth speaker when we work out. So as we were stretching, I told her I was going to play it. After the line, “Stop watching the news, because the news contrives to frighten you” was sung, she turned to me and said “But that is so true”. I said, “I know”. After the song was over she asked with out a skip, “Can we listen to the Bjork album...
  15. It is that intense for me

    Sunday 07/30/2017, 443pm. I am panting, out of breath. I fall to the floor. I look up to the ceiling and swipe a towel across my wet face. I need a moment to let my heart recover. This lullaby swirls in my ear, escorting me on my transition from pain to comfort and respite. I feel. I feel everything in this moment. All spirits are calmed. As it ends five minutes and eighteen seconds later, I turn on my side to slowly rise. I am floating, I am whole, I am radiant. Music is otherworldly,...
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