Blog Entries from everybody's lost

  1. i found a connector - it's just a reflektor

    I got in my car one friday night - drove to my local record shop - and bought 2 real live cd's (arcade fire and beck). I was transported... I can't remember the last time i bought a cd... it took me back - sitting in the car, peeling off the plastic. popping the cd out of of it's case (ok, well, in the case of arcade fire, pulling it out of it's sleeve...) popping it in the cd player... turning up the volume and just driving... oh the hours I'd spend... the best was at night - when the...
  2. Never mind things can only improve....

    I find myself in limbo... I've taken a leap from one lily pad and am soaring towards the next and i'm frozen mid leap. I got a new job, quit my old one, squeezed in a nice vacation, found out that my new job has delayed my start date for a week and here i am.... In between jobs.... Feeling kinda useless and shiftless and jobless.... A feeling i should be enjoying.... But can't quite.... I'm learning though. I've had a job non stop since i was 14.... I lied about my age at that time and...
  3. you are beautiful, no matter what they say...

    so anytime I'm watching the science channel or the history channel, a beautiful and powerful notion strikes me... I'm watching stuff about Columbus, or Henry VIII, or Copernicus or, hell, Jesus even (the historical figure) and I think to myself - my ancestors were around then... during all these times, someone related to me was definitely around...under the same moon and sun even.... all these things we read about didn't just happen on a page in a book, my people were there...somewhere......
  4. You've got your mother in a whirl....

    so i have a friend who's got 2 boys - about 7 and 4 or so-ish... I'm not good at ages. she asked me if I could watch them last saturday night and since I hadn't agreed to watch them in a while, I told her to bring them over... the 7 year old is very rambuctious... he's all about fighting and climbing and running, etc. the 4 year old is this sweet kid who, last time he was over, spent much of the time swamped by my giant headphones, listening to the ipod... and dancing... he also went...
  5. i can sink much lower than usual...

    ugh - I didn't know how good I had it.... I used to get depressive moods, periods, whatever. And those weren't great, but they weren't debilitating. they weren't very scary.... they were just low moods, dark periods, that lingered for a while and then lifted. Anxiety on the other hand, really sucks. I'd been flippant when people talked of anxiety issues.... no more. it's debilitating and scary is what it is. I think anxiety is happening to me because it's depression plus stress - in my case,...
  6. its just not like the old days anymore....

    (psssst - i miss my old journal :() but as with everything else in the world, time waits for no lost soul.... progress.... in that vein, my mom called me up a while ago, very ill with the flu.... I jumped in my car, armed with some left over tamiflu I had gotten filled last year, some nyquil, a thermometer (mom didn't have one), some soup I had made meself, and some other goodies and I made my way to her house... I called my sister and told her to come down and collect the goods......
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