Blogs

  1. I've been reading my old journal as redpathetic

    It seems to be an endless read, including the comments.
  2. so yeah, this is happening

    been a long time since under 220, but I know that's the easy weight to lose, its the next 17 pounds that will require more than just not eating junk, but actual effort :o
  3. from lows to highs

    So yesterday were cleaning out this cabin and I started out my usual happy go lucky self when working and well, were not in the building a minute and I can just feel something is weird, but I just get the job done then I ask what’s the deal with the place. Every dwelling has a story, its an old picker cabin converted into a family house years ago. The last fam in it was an elderly couple and their middle aged son, the son died from pneumonia last winter, the mom died shortly after then the...
  4. Still I Cling

    I don`t remember the exact time I discovered this thing. This thing that made me feel better. This thing that brought me this strange form of relief. Even I know it`s a strange thing to do to yourself. It`s also weird that doing that to yourself takes you (temporarily) away from what`s going on in your head. It makes you feel better for a few moments. You think it helps you when in reality it hurts you. It leaves those ugly scars behind. Your wounds may heal but those scars will never fade....
  5. The Little Prince

    "Life itself is only a vision, a dream." "Nothing exists save empty space and you" ~Mark Twain, The Mysterious Stranger, Chapter IX~ "...In antiphonal azure swing, souls drone their unfinished melody...when did we live and when did we not?" ~James Dean in a letter to Barbara Glenn~ Sing me to sleep...
  6. I've been there.

    I've been roofied. So I guess that's why I have such strong feelings about Cosby. It happened to me twice. I'm glad he's in jail now. His spokesman is trying to turn it into a race war. [URL]https://dailym.ai/2OO95tV[/URL]
  7. Burt talking about Sally Field

    "I miss her terribly, even now, it's hard on me. I don't know why I was so stupid. Men are like that, you know. You find the perfect person, and then you do everything you can to screw it up." -amen brother...
  8. Life Is Crazy

    This week has been difficult. I could barely drag myself out of bed yesterday. I just didn`t have the will to get up and face another day. In fact getting by day by day is really difficult for me. Just simple everyday things feel like a monumental tasks for me. I`m always so tired and have no energy. Even though I`m always so tired it takes pills to make me sleep. No meds means no sleep for me. This has gone on for years now. I can`t see an end to this. It feels like this illness has been...
  9. Believe it or not

    one can serve ones country, with distinction even, find they’ve discovered something they’re actually quite good at it and walk away, cuz to kill for lies and evil old men is simply not worth the vain glory of it all, the death and destruction is something someone like me can get use to really, but the injustice of it all was just too much, killing people that don’t deserve it is a weight like no other really and while life post army has been hard, never really fit in anywheres, I don’t...
  10. Statute Of Limitations Has Surely Expired On This

    Just wanted it to be finally known that I was the person who perpetrated the 2001 "Striptease With A Difference" hoax referenced here, here, and here. I mixed my own moos with the generic striptease song and then appended that to a snippet of a studio-release version of a Durutti Column song from the same time period as Viva Hate. Here's a link to the raw and mixed "moo" files. Back when this was done, my friend and I believed that if a fake version were released, it might prompt someone...
  11. I'm proud of Moz,

    for I'm Not A Man. Great album, that World Peace Is None Of Your Business
  12. Oh blue dreamers eyes...

    "I'm a serious-minded and intense little devil, terribly gauche and so tense I don't see how people stay in the same room with me. I know I wouldn't tolerate myself." ~James Dean~
  13. Relearning how to navigate this site.

    Some would know me as redpathetic. I don't have my password anymore. This site is different now. It's been a long time since I've posted.
  14. Love letter

    I just composed a long love letter to my wife. In summary, I am grateful she came into my life. When thinking about my life and then documenting it, there is a tinge of sadness with the awareness that so many people can't see what to be grateful for in their lives. That they may not experience life the way I do. I will note though, I do not feel guilt for this as it has been my decisions and hard work that brought me to here. My life has included incredible suffering on many different...
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