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  1. Get that thing away from me

    Approximately 5 days ago I started to not feel so hot. I assumed it was just nicotine withdrawals and just got some nicotine on Friday. This turned out to be a big mistake for what I actually had was the mother of all flus! I shall not go into details but let’s just say after soldiering on for days, something inside me just dissolved away. The pain hit me all at once, head, stomach, vomiting, diarrhea, runny nose, just the worst and all because of my wonderful little nephew, he’s adorable...
  2. Moz Solo Hall of Fame

    (Not including myself cuz that would be presumptuous) vicarinatutugal virtually dead chica realitybites nugz (Shit, didn’t mean for it to be all women) the more you explore me!/Cornelius blaze Uncleskinny Bored !Viva Hate! Buzzetta Jukebox Jury Kewpie troubleluvsme -I could go on, but 12 seems good, some people now that might rate someday of course...
  3. Breaking free one last time

    When push comes to shove, she’s with them against you :straightface: sooner you realize that, the better dude :o Got to get out of here and be free of all of these people, no exceptions... Update: Ok, so they could see I was pissed and they gave me the lowdown, which is good, cuz while I could just never speak to most of my fam ever again and it really be a blessing, fact is, I love my mom dearly, always will and I’d like to soak up as much of seeing her before I go off globetrotting...
  4. Barbara, It Was Really Nothing

    "Jimmy could turn people off, and those who weren't his friends had little time and effort to spend dealing with it. "Of course Jimmy had his reasons for what he did." "Jimmy wasn't a very social human being, or a nice person to a lot of people, and some people approached him with a chip on their shoulder, trying to prove they would find what they didn't like in Jimmy. " "Jimmy was not good at reaching out, and you just knew that anything could be mistaken for a rejection. I felt like I...
  5. Whisper To A Scream

    "James Dean revealed the subtle light which rests so eloquently on everyone, and as we follow his sleight of hand, we wonder how it ever managed to be so elusive. Like everything intimate, remote and transforming, when all was nearly apparent, he disappeared, leaving only his iridescent traces. This was James Dean's magical capacity." "Stardom gave an indestructible aspect to "James Dean," but it was the deceptive ordinariness of his creation and the very casualness with which he adopted...
  6. Must see film

    Can’t rate this film I’m too close to it in watching and in my deeply catholic upbringing, but it’s an important film, it will stand the test of time, warning though, it builds slowly and is filled with religious allegory that you might miss, but for me? It’s a masterpiece...
  7. Loss

    My step dad died 415 days ago, he was only 67, set to retire at the end of last year, missed that by half a year, oh the cruel irony of that, tireless worker his whole life, one of those things that makes one certain there is no god or if so, what a total dick this supposed deity is & so yeah, his death, my step dad, it still hits me hard sometimes, like today weirdly I guess. Its my mom’s birthday and normally I’d have been helping him figure out what to get for her before today because...
  8. They will wake up yawn and kill you (not really)

    As my kids get older, I find they have their own thirst for their own hard earned wisdom. My wife and I can prevent so many failings for them if they just blindly followed ours. But is that really giving them wisdom. I truly don't think so. I understand the young adult process that you have to reject wisdom to forge your own. I am not at all offended and understand. Nothing crazy, just the weird look when you state your knowledge to them. It is always a conversation. No one has ever stormed...
  9. Christmas postcards

    Today we had our weekly family meeting. I brought up, when are we going to have our atrocious Christmas sweater night. We were unanimous that it should be tonight. We batted around the ideas of how we would mix it up. The funnier and more corny the better. The gym was the kids idea for the Christmas postcard. I hope everyone here has a good holiday season. We have ups and we have lows. Make the best of the time we are allowed here. Time do as I wish.
  10. Some Stuff I Was Thinking About

    I think I hate this feeling of emptiness more than the depression. No....I think I hate both equally. I feel so empty inside right now. I wonder what my being on this earth is for. I feel like I don`t contribute anything. I feel so worthless. I am nothing ,nobody . Sometimes it takes everything inside of me just to get of bed and do normal everyday things. It`s a struggle when all you want to do all day is lay in bed and stare at the wall. I wonder how long this will go on. How long will I...
  11. Spent the day in the gym

    My daughter and I began our workout today with my proclamation that Morrissey has a new song out. We usually play music from my phone through a Bluetooth speaker when we work out. So as we were stretching, I told her I was going to play it. After the line, “Stop watching the news, because the news contrives to frighten you” was sung, she turned to me and said “But that is so true”. I said, “I know”. After the song was over she asked with out a skip, “Can we listen to the Bjork album...
  12. Panic On The Streets

    Today's protests in Manchester's Piccadilly Gardens sees 400 Greater Manchester Police deployed. A live stream of the protest, that actually buffered more than it streamed, was hosted on Facebook by the user account The Manc. It seemed that even the most fundamental aspect of the event, like who was protesting what, could not be agreed upon by anyone, down to the comment posters on the live feed. Former EDL leader Tommy Robinson seems to be credited with the planning of the gathering, and...
  13. I could say more, but you get the general idea

    This was the afternoon before. I find that some moments are so surreal. My wife is with me in the car. We are out together. As I sit at a stop light, this soft music is playing. We have had great conversation. I've paused and told her how much I love her and how much I love being with her. She smiles and looks at me lovingly. Real, right there. I don't take it for granted. Through youth, I've had it all end in tears so many times. This is the now. No tears. A calm sense when you love and...
  14. my workplace

    part one: martha At first she is startling in her let-it-all-hang-out rotundity. "Why," my sister asks after meeting her the first time, "is her belly so big and low?"; a question I, being more liberal and accepting than my sister (who it should be noted feels the need to criticize and find fault with everyone and everything: "looking good, honey," she says mockingly of every female we pass while driving in her car, or, "there's a guy for you," of every male we pass), have never asked,...
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