Blogs

  1. Butterflies

    The ups and downs and the one who rides the wave with you. At this stage of the game for me, you have to know and bare your soul. Take the small moments in which to express yourself, state your needs, ask for theirs and make a commitment to meet in the middle. Sometimes it's very easy, sometimes it's very hard. A constant process. One that has worked well for us. With our kids like little adults now, my wife and I are exploring a new side of our relationship. Not really new, but one that was...
  2. Blogging Moz Live(ish)

    Tonight's the night baby! Me. Mom. Moz. Marquee. Leaving work at 3:30 PM. Will check into hotel in Tempe, go out for some drinks and tapas, then head to the venue. Don't need to be the first folks there. Not sure what kind of pics I'll get. Nothing worth posting on the tour thread, I'm sure. But I'll share what I get here. Soon Mom will find out what all the fuss is about. BTW, it's 86 F in Phoenix. I bet Moz is loving it!
  3. Some Stuff I Was Thinking About

    I think I hate this feeling of emptiness more than the depression. No....I think I hate both equally. I feel so empty inside right now. I wonder what my being on this earth is for. I feel like I don`t contribute anything. I feel so worthless. I am nothing ,nobody . Sometimes it takes everything inside of me just to get of bed and do normal everyday things. It`s a struggle when all you want to do all day is lay in bed and stare at the wall. I wonder how long this will go on. How long will I...
  4. Moz at the Marquee

    Updates at Bottom. Wasn't sure I was up for a concert after the Manchester and Las Vegas tragedies. But I have been listening to Moz's new tracks all day at work-laughing my tail off. And I am in a good mood so I decided, what the hey, I am gonna take David to see Moz at the Marquee in Phoenix on November 16. Heck he lives there and I am only an hour and half away. I can leave after work, spend the night in Phoenix, then go into work later the next afternoon. I am meeting him in Sedona...
  5. Spent the day on the range

    A good friend called me and asked me to go out and shoot a rifle match with him. It has been a few years so I grabbed all my gear and had a wonderful day with several people I haven't seen in a few years. I took my M1 Garand as he said it was an old school bunch. Highpower is such a mind fuck. Pulling it all together standing/sitting/prone. It is so focused and so relaxed at the same time. That is the key, balancing those to personal perfection. I am not in the pic One of the ways...
  6. I`m A Loser

    I never thought my life would end up this way when I was growing up.Yet here I am. I started to become ill in my twenties. I didn`t know what was happening to me at first. I thought I must be going crazy. Turns out it was all too true. I can`t tell you how scary it was. It was/still is awful to be inside my head. I could barely stand it some days .I didn`t really want to die but I didn`t want to go on like I was. I just wanted the pain and anxiety and fear to go away. I didn`t go to a...
  7. Hawaii. Next week. Stay tuned.

    Update 2 pic: at Tiki's on Waikiki Beach Thursday 5 PM.
  8. Spent the day in SFMOMA

    In the ongoing series of "spent the day in", you know....... while the workers were enslaved...... I spent the day with my daughter at SFMOMA. She had asked to see an exhibit by a photographer. We had cameras in hand and enjoyed a day at the museum.
  9. Myrtle Beach Here I Come!

    In just a few hours I will be on a flight to North Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. Can't wait to feel the cool water between my toes and hear the sound of waves as they kiss the shore. But most of all I am excited to see my dad--it's been over ten years. Update 8/23: I am back. Had a great, peaceful, much-needed vacation. Was great to see my dad and stepmom. Their condo on the beach is to die for. Will post pics soon. Watch this space. Promised Pics: ^^^ Yikes!
  10. It is that intense for me

    Sunday 07/30/2017, 443pm. I am panting, out of breath. I fall to the floor. I look up to the ceiling and swipe a towel across my wet face. I need a moment to let my heart recover. This lullaby swirls in my ear, escorting me on my transition from pain to comfort and respite. I feel. I feel everything in this moment. All spirits are calmed. As it ends five minutes and eighteen seconds later, I turn on my side to slowly rise. I am floating, I am whole, I am radiant. Music is otherworldly,...
  11. Honolulu Here We Come!

    Update at bottom of post. My mom just asked me if I'd like to go to Hawaii for my birthday in October—her treat. Well hell yes! Let the planning begin. If anyone has any recommendations for restaurants and/or activities, I'm all ears. Other news, thoughts... Work has lost its luster but it's still challenging and pays the bills—plus extras. My mom moved out here in December. She bought a charming house just 10 minutes drive from my apartment. We have been having a blast checking out...
  12. Giving Up Or Being Realistic

    I`m not sure when I accepted that I will never have some things in life that most people have.I just have accepted that fact.I don`t know if that`s giving up or being realistic.I know it`s mostly my fault.I was always too scared of everything.Afraid of rejection and afraid of being judged by other people.I was/am always scared of being hurt.That is a terrible way to live. This illness certainly hasn`t made things easier.I have my bad days and I have my okay days.But it`s really difficult to...
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  14. Panic On The Streets

    Today's protests in Manchester's Piccadilly Gardens sees 400 Greater Manchester Police deployed. A live stream of the protest, that actually buffered more than it streamed, was hosted on Facebook by the user account The Manc. It seemed that even the most fundamental aspect of the event, like who was protesting what, could not be agreed upon by anyone, down to the comment posters on the live feed. Former EDL leader Tommy Robinson seems to be credited with the planning of the gathering, and...
  15. I'm a Grandmother!!

    Still can't get over the fact that el hijo numero uno has spawned!!! I am to be called Mimi. I still want another baby myself, but I know there's no chance I'd ever have a girl. I've always known I'd only have sons. And, hilariously, I always said I bet I'd end up with a gaggle of Granddaughters. She's called Adeline Harper, and I hope that is an homage to Harper Lee and not the Beckham baby. I haven't enquired, as I'd rather hang out with my assumption than face some embarrassing notion....
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