Blogs

  1. buh bye

    first SFO then Wuhan, finally Shanghai, in the end had to get all the Visa stuff done myself, you want something done right? you gotta do it yourself...
  2. Bourdain

    One year ago today you left us. Still sad. Still confused. I fear I will never know why you chose to go. :( My goodness, I sure would like to sit down with you and share a beer or a cup of coffee. You were one of a kind. You are missed and loved by millions.
  3. GoT, ranking the seasons

    #1 Season 6, the best battle sequence “Battle of the Bastards” Hodor saving the day, revenge on the Freys, the Sept blowing up, the Snake Sisters, lots of Melisandre, verbal sparring/friendship between Tyrion and Varys, oh and one of my fave actresses was in it for a bit, Essie Davis #2. Season 3, The Red Wedding(thankfully, I knew about it from reading the books years earlier, otherwise I might have had an aneurysm, but it was brilliantly done) Dany getting the Unsullied, The whole Ramsay...
  4. cold turkey

    so I did the step down thing to the 3 mg ones for the last few weeks, but they ran out Friday, so now its no nicotine at all, and since I gave up the clove ciggies before even that, my head just hurts now all the time, everything is annoying, getting off these things should be easier than cigs, much less nicotine in them, but I think that since so much makes it into the blood stream, as opposed to when I smoke a clove like I use to, that these withdrawals are really off of more nicotine,...
  5. Tired and Useless

    I`m listening to Morrissey`s song "Lost" right now. Which is exactly how I feel right now. I`m in an awful depression right now. I`m tired all the time and can`t find the motivation to get a whole lot done right now . I mean I try but I think some people might just think I`m being lazy. I hate to think people are thinking of me that way. I've written about what a wonderful Mom and sisters and nieces and nephews that I have but I feel so lonely right now. I feel like no one understands that...
  6. TAT and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

    The 24 hours following 5:30 pm on Thursday were unusually bad. Upon arriving home that day I had discovered that the burglars had been back and taken more treasured finds from my life. The trauma washed over me with the familiar feeling that the world was cruelly acting upon me again. I had no power to keep my home, my sanctuary, safe and protected from outside intrusion. I wrestled with options of how to respond. How to find my power in the situation I hadn’t chosen but was forced to deal...
  7. 51 years ago

    From remembered stories told to me by my father and the internet, I’ve been able to piece together that he served in the 2nd Battalion, 4th Marines or the “The Magnificent Bastards” as they’ve been called since fighting valiantly on against all odds at Corregidor in WW2 versus the Japanese. Thereby allowing MacArthur to escape on a PT boat, though he did eventually return, but I digress, my dad didn’t fight in that war, but a later one, not one we think so fondly of, there were no...
  8. Rest In Peace Red Woman (spoilers)

    I knew ppl were gonna die, but did they have to kill the hottest woman on the show? whatever, guess with the Night King killed she had no part in the much less consequential battle for the Iron Throne, which to tbh? I care far less about, obviously I wanna see Cersei defeated, but the last 3 episodes are a bit anti-climatic for me...
  9. going backwards

    Ok, this is not good, but I know why, still drinking soda like every other day though I know its poison and some stress eating as I await this visa nightmare to end. Also, a year ago? would've been ecstatic to be at 200...
  10. this site is a place where anything goes, but bookface is a different fish

    banned for the 3 days for posting this a few days ago, was informed of the sentence today I'm absolutely certain this was done without any idiot at their organization reading the post, they just saw a klansmen and boom, banned this has happened before, I once made a post about how college athletes are basically treated like slaves because none of them make any money and universities make billions off of them here in the USA, but I included and image of a slavery era plantation, and boom,...
  11. slow and steady wins the race

    180 something is what I'm shooting for, but it is getting harder and I know that when I get back to China all the street food is going to call to me, but I'll face that struggle when it comes...
  12. Picking at Scabs

    When you live long enough and have taken a few risks, you’re bound to wind up with scabs on your heart and soul. Scabs that fairly effectively hold the gashes, and the broken pieces, together. Scabs that show the efforts of the universe to heal you back into a functioning person. Scabs that camouflage the moments of solitary desperation and hopelessness, that feel as if they’ll tick on for an eternity. And when you’re brave enough you may choose to reach out, slide a nail under an edge and...
  13. I know its just a number

    but I must feel a bit like Chuck Yeager did when he broke the sound barrier :cool: been decades since I've been under 200 pounds and to do it while under the stress of interviewing and now all the shit that goes with getting a work visa to china? remarkable I'd say, what's so different from all the times before is knowing myself so well, the part of me that wants to overeat, spend money on shit I don't need, argue with my asshole relatives, drink or whatever, he's just not as smart as I...
  14. back on track and it feels right

    after the real estate detour I find myself embarking on what I was meant to do a year ago, should be back in China by the end of summer. likely sooner :guitar: getting more interviews than expected at my age, perhaps China is coming to appreciate that its good to have at least one older experienced teacher on your staff of Westerners? :cool: UPDATE: 1st interview, got job if want it, but pay not so good and don't like location so much 2nd interview, the guy who would be my boss seems cool,...
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