Not much going on these days.Still been cutting myself.I`ve been pretty moody and don`t want to talk to anyone.My mom says maybe your bipolar because one minute your okay and the next your not.Maybe that`s it because it seems like I`ve been on every anti deprresant with no luck.Sometimes I get so tired of living this life.Nothing seems to give me pleasure anymore.Life doesn`t seem worth living.I sometimes wonder if it`s worth it to go on.I am still cutting and hurting myself.I even burned myself with a candle lighter all around the entire length of my wrist so the scars sort of form a bracelet.While I was gone my mom took the lighter out of my room.That totally made me feel lke shit.I didn`t say anything about it though because I know she is only trying to help me.She even wanted me to go some place during the day for people who have problems ( I guess) and people don`t want to leave them alone.I refused of course.She even told me you can paint there.I said no anyway.I know she`s just trying to help me but I don`t need a babysitter.I just don`t know what else to do.

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  Watch Me Bleed Bleed Forever
              ~Tears For Fears~