Hey Tibby,

Thank you for sharing with us. You know you do a wonderful thing by sharing because you talk about your life so matter of fact and that is exactly what it is. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you should be sorry or ashamed for what you're doing. Okay, cutting isn't great for you, but I do understand that in some ways it's good for you. I used to self harm, but not through cutting - I was a stratcher. I didn't class it as self harm, because I wasn't cutting, but then, eventually I accepted it and understanding it gave me the ability to stop it. It's not easy though because you've got to have some alternative outlet for control and release, which is kinda hard when you're being given a load of meds all the time.

I hope you don't mind me asking, but what is your diagnosis and has your physch guy offered you CBT?

I'm bi-polar myself and had a real struggle with it for years, but now I am really mentally healthy, though still mentally unwell in official terms! I work for a big mental health charity in England so I'm really passionate about supporting people with direct experience of mental distress and challenging the view that we should all be doped up, locked up or both.

That's not to say everyone can live a med-free life - one of my friends is paranoid pychotic with Aspergers thrown in for good measure and without his meds he would have to be locked up, but for some of us, there are other ways... I'd just be interested in hearing your views...

And maybe this website would be useful to you (I'm guessing you are in the States)...

http://www.mentalhealthpeers.com/ [mentalhealthpeers.com]

I hope the new meds work out better for you.

x

Hello Tibby.. I hope you have a nice day...
I'm on my way across town and well, all I can say is I feel like Tweek tweak from South Park..

Needing meds but refusing.. Nuts huh!

But, I am in good spirits these days and I hope you are to..

Nice to hear from you!

Hugs and Heart..

If I have made you feel bad at any point please let me know say it ok..Even if it means getting angry at me.
Wow, I wonder if you get like this.. Moment when you just tell other to fuck off! I know I feel this way many a days, yet hold it in.. Which only makes me more enclosed hmm into myself.
I guess this is what gets me anxious to the point of just not wanting to be around.I guess this life can be so hard on us that we all may feel this, many times toooo often.

Reading the person named Kitty here made me sad,sad that I, may have put you on a spot here.. I sure hope I have not.Keep writing as often as possible .. If it is to personal write elsewhere. I guess.=/ :)
("Kitty! Thank you".)

I'd love to be around you!, to see if I could be of some encouragement or it being mutual.. So, I may get a little frustrated and Ugg talk shit!True shite though!.
Especially, when I feel you can hurt yourself so much that I, WE all here, stop seeing you write!
I hope your doctors appointment goes well..
Just let it all out somehow.We can be so camouflage in hiding what we are feeling..
Sooo Know what I would do.. I'd get up super early that day and prepare myself.
Physically and Mentally, write things down.
Dress up, clean up well so you can feel confident , somehow and let it all hang out baby!
haha

Skin camouflage,
“When I look in the mirror without it, all I see is redness. As soon as it’s on I feel so confident and can just get on with my life.”

The Best of Hope and Wishes to you my dear:)
I best get my butt out of here..:)
(waves , and blows a respectful kiss on the cheek:)

Truly
Friends

Marisela