She said I saw your wrist.She said I`m gonna call your doctor and tell him that your cutting yourself.I said he already knows.She said she would take me to court so I could be put in a hospital against your will.Now I am angry,Then I hear the same old things again.Then I hear the same old things again like your not trying you don`t go to church ect..She even told me to snap out of it.I feel like I`m not the one in control of my brain.I can`t help the way I feel.Then she brings up my pills .She said all they do is make you sleep.I`m so tired of all this bullshit.They don`t have to live in my head.If they did maybe they would understand it a little better.Right now I feel like they don`t understand at all.If I could"snap out of it"don`t they think I would.I don`t like living like this.I even bought something new to cut myself with and was dissapointed because it didn`t cut me deep enough.My mom told me that cutting myself is like committing suicide.I told no it`s not.To me it`s the way I survive.I wish I had the guts to do it.
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