If it helps, if anything helps, there are other people in a similar spot. I think there have been since the world began. Sometimes it gets to a point when you can't trust your instincts anymore, like maybe when your scars have scars? Maybe then you need to level with your mom or the shrink. I'm just sayin'.

I'll pray for ya.

Sending a virtual hug to you Tibby...and thinking of you as ever....

Love Alma xxx

Hay I soooo can relate to how you feel.
I somedays feel the same I go from extreme highs and lows though. But back when I was diagnosed with having a disease there is no cure for...I seriously just wanted to sleep because when I was there I wasn't here in reality facing everything. I wanted to wake up and have everything feel better but it didn't but I am finally feeling a little bit better with my counselors help and the help of my friends and family. I just have anxiety issues as of late that suck but I am dealing with them. Somedays I just want to end it all because it seems so easy and the pain will go but all in all life is really meant to lived and enjoyed. I hope you can find some sort of peace and happiness. Maybe switch drs?? Have your only ever saw this "one"? At first when I saw my counselor for the first time I was like what the hell she just pretty much sat there wasn't she spose to help me the first session but later on I felt better just from talking things out. But I also think a person has a to make an effort from inside themselves to say hay I hate feeling this way so stop feeling this way...I am at least sort of trying now. Also filling my life with positives instead of negatives. To me though Life and Death neither really appeal to me...I am just floating through here...its all just so crazy sometimes, life! Is there something that happened to you in your life that triggered the sadness or have you been this way your whole life? I had been a depressed soul my whole life pretty much but it got really bad when I heard the news of what I had about 4 yrs back. But I coped with it and now am feeling the anxiety of it lately so now I have that to cope with....ah well. But my heart goes out to you because I feel your pain, oh do I feel your pain. If I could give you a hug I would because hugs are the best. Maybe go for a walk or drive and admire the beauty of nature and soak yourself in with with some good tunes on your walkman or something? I do this sometimes to center myself. Makes me feel refreshed and at ease with my inner being. To live life to the fullest find a purpose. That always helps too. Do something your passionate about. :D
Mannny hugs from me to you.
ABC