The cherry trees are already losing their petals and the streets are covered with soft pink and white spots. Now I can only hope many bees have been busy enough to turn all those fruit knobs into sweet juicy cherries! I really like to have some fruit in the garden, especially cherries!

----that was how my mood was like this early morning after I got home, around 8 am. I had slept over at Jasmin's after her bachelorette party which was really nice. It wasn't maybe as wild as one could imagine (I still don't think that there was alcohol in any of the cocktails! I feel betrayed!) but us girls had a really nice time. We made her sell garter belts which she was wearing under a monk costume... She had made some good money at the end of the night, needless to say! She also got a stripper, dressed as an American Cop. Now I don't know why this is, but I'd rather see a beautiful girl dancing. I just can't really find it sexy. There has to be more for me, I guess. But it was just for the fun of it anyway! I spent the night on her couch with her cats warming my feet...

I felt very alive and active when I got home, it was a beautiful spring day at first, but after a nap on the couch I didn't wake up properly again and so I'm still tired...

This week at work I'm going to have my "Revision" which means that our principle will come and watch one of my lessons. After this she'll write a report and hopefully in September I will be "Beamter auf Lebenszeit" (civil servant?) It basically means I can't be fired and have a very safe job. Quite important these unsure days...

Also, I started teaching 2sexual education" again in a 4th grade class. It's just very easy to teach since the motivation couldn't be higher! They've asked me if we just work theoretically or.... haha, well, no practice here! Some girls announced they'll design a poster for that subject - I wonder what this will be like! I have a mailbox in my class where they can all ask me anything anonymously, I'm sure they'll use that too. For me it's important to makeclear to them how beautiful it is when connected to the right feelings. Early enough they'll learn about other possibilities!

Saw Keane last week, "one of those hyped British bands", you think now, don't you? First I want to say that I'm very impressed with their beautiful songwriting and the singer's voice. It's just the mixture that I totally like. And still... isn't it sad that once a band starts to get hyped you already fear you'll only hear their songs in supermarkets and elevators soon? I really hope they'll be successful as they deserve it, and I hope they'll always stay as nice as they were in Cologne. Not only the drummer gave me a set of drumsticks - no, I didn't even to ask for it! I don't know how he knew? I also got a nice t-shirt. Oh well, I'm simply happy about such things. To me, it's a bit like Frederick the mouse who is collecting colours for grey cold days...

I don't know in which interview I've read it, it was probably the NME? Where Morrissey said that the best thing about getting older is that you stop living trying to think what other people think of you? It's also something I learn now- I was perfect at fulfilling expectations. It goes that far that I can't even tell when I made a decision because I wanted it that way or because I felt I had to do this because that was what other people wanted. It was just the same for me. A new world opening up for me now!

xxx