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04:32 PM
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Not...
Not really in the mood to work tomorrow. Not prepared, tired. Not convinced that this Moz show is going to happen. Not happy that I won't go if it will happen. Not happy about a best friends heartache. Not satisfied with the photos I took this morning. Not enough time.
Happy for other fans that they will see him. Happy about a lovely cuddling/dvd afternoon. Happy about 3 times jogging in 5 days. Happy about being able to make my heartache-friend laugh once again.
Oh well, I tried to convince myself but it's not working completely today.
I'm just so mad that I had 5 times off and no real time for myself. Too many duties recently, I'm going to change this, if possible.My word of the year is "no". I've said yes much too easily, much too often in the past. It all has to do with the feeling "to belong somewhere", I guess. If you say yes it is much easier to feel as a part of a group. I think some friends of mine can't really deal with this change, but I just feel how a bit of ... egoism.. is quite healthy... I'm still the same person, I've just changed.
xxx
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That's interesting, because I'm actually feeling the precise opposite these days (see the first part of my most recent entry), but I do understand how you feel completely.
At times I too feel the need for some personal downtime, and that's a wonderful thing to strive for, so long as you're at peace with all the different thoughts swimmin' about inside your head. Unfortunately for me though, I'm not at present so I keep pushing on even when it's not terribly neccessary, but from how you've described things in the recent past I think you are at peace with yourself these days so you obviously desire (and deserve) some you-time, so I hope it comes for you, and sometime soon.
all the best,