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Saturday January 11, 03
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04:20 AM - What internet inspire to me
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He hasn’t written to me today
And I ask myself what is wrong
I don’t even know you and I miss you already
And you over there
I ask myself what I am to you
I get crazy ideas sometimes
As you can see
And me, and me, and me
And me, and me, and me
He hasn’t written to me today
And I ask myself what is wrong
I don’t even know you and I miss you already
I think of you
I think of you
I think of you and forget
That New York is so far from Paris
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Friday January 03, 03
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06:47 PM - I find something new today
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Today i was in a supermarket and i discover a good system for have a better place in this silly queues.
I explain : a couple tried (like always) to take your places in this queues, this time i decided to test a new "system".
They try to insert their trolley in the queue, i watch their face and i turn my head to my friend and said with a serious and concern voice " Peter is always in jail?"
This simply words make the comportements of this stupid couple change, they shut their mouths and i continue with" yeah take 4 years is not cool for him" and i can tell you : We win!! they let us passed, with no violence, no shout, just somes simples words :)
I like it! see how people are scary by the words "jail" confirm my sad opinion of people!
Exciting life isn't it?
Well without that my day was dispressed! too much bills in a short time! how can i pay that??!!?? 600$!! 600$!!!!
and no job. It's not that i'm a lazy guy, it's just they're not!
Maybe i should sell something, my telly for example, it will not be a big renonciation but better i could have 100$ (it's a color one i precise!) and after what i saw last night on tv i will have no regrets : war, hunting, misery... i have all of that around me, i don't need to see it in a telly isn't it?
(i'll thinking about this solution, promise)
Without that, i had a gifts from a chatter :) it was very funny and pleasant to think that someone, somewhere, think about you. Thanks again Dear ;)
2nd thing to think : send a letter to this radio station : i'm fed up to hear sad song, it's not good for me, they play "i started a joke" (Richie Havens version). Not bad but i need something better for the moment.
2h31 Am they play "wonderful woman" morrissey!! good to hear you, it's a very nice song!! strange, i feel better, ok the lyrics are not the most funny you wrote but maybe it's just the simple fact to hear your voice on this song who make me feel better
(thinking to say in my letter to the radio station : ok, continue but with more Smiths and moz)
Tomorrow i'll rent a movie, i like this old movies of the 30's-40's but they're not much in video club, an other thing i don't understand. Old movies are really better than what we can see on the screen now but we can't find it on vhs or dvd :(
I think i'll take "Gattaca" again i love this film.
bye
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Thursday January 02, 03
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06:35 PM - hmm such a boring life
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Well 1 month without job, should i be ok or should be worried?
I saw somes bad things these past months : death, pain, tears. Sometimes i ask myself if i will be strong enough for see these things again.
No answers comes to me, just a big feeling of frustration.
It's late here and i can't stop thinking, why poor people should see sad things in this world? isn't it enough to be poor for see pain?
If i was a believer i said "God help me, help us"" but i'm totally unlucky, i'm not a believer so i turn my eyes to my Earthmates and i try to find a reason, a good reason for let this things conitnue!(remind me to read Confucius, or watch the Monthy Python for revise the meaning of life)
It's 2.15 AM here, is started this journal at 1.30 AM. Maybe i write slowly for see the clock with 8AM writing on it, for see the day come, maybe the sun or simply life start again around me.
Oh noooo the radio play "Dirty Old Town", i finish to believe they want me to die or what??
In a sense this song remind me somes good moments with a girl (oh i smile) hey moz!! you're right there's alight who never goes out :)
Sorry i should take time for reflexion before saying such things, not your song is bad but now this bloody Dj play "Jealous Guy" (Elliott Smith cover) and he switch off the light! Well i finish to think it's not my day.
I try to sleep a bit, i need that, i don't know why i wrote this diary.
Bye
(maybe tomorrow will be better, i think it's just all this "party" days who get me dispressed, i hate this hypocrite and false happiness moments)
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