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Tuesday August 19, 08
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02:10 PM - just over 90 days!
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music: Clean BY Depeche Mode
mood: ok, i guess
no drugs in me for over 90 days now
yay!
sure, i have drank a couple of times, but not very often
as long as i allow myself that, it seems to be fine
i rarely even think about speed now
which is good, not that i really did before consciously
i just hung around it and people on it a lot
actually, i noticed that druggies really do not like you talking about drugs, and not just because of the whole cop thing
no, i think its more because if they talk about it out loud, well, then may realize they really should not be doing it
this is why N.A. works for so many
there people talk about it freely
i know it works for me when i get a craving
i mean i dont do the meeting everyday thing
thats just not me, for me the key thing is moderation, even the 'anti-drug' thing
but when i get a craving for drugs
i just go to meeting
i think i'll go to one a little later today actually
(i prefer to go to evening ones, the people there tend to be a better class of person, if you know what i mean)
& it will be nice to hear people clap for me
;o]
ps: i think i found some temporary work that starts in October
now to look for something more long term after that and find something to do before then if i can...
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I've never really gotten comfortable using drugs myself though I have tasted a few. I think I've pissed a lot of people off because I haven't been a slave to that culture.
A slave to many other cultures though;/
food
sleep
sex
catatonia
distraction
writing
reading
television
internet
helping
hoping