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Monday August 11, 08
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12:12 PM - the pool was full of pollen & other things
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music: YATQ
mood: i am eating alone, which is kind of sad you know?
on Saturday afternoon i went into the pool after cleaning all the leaves out
that was a mistake, it still had a lot of pollen in it
i got quickly congested after being in it only 10 to 15 minutes or so
phlegm came by night fall and i am sure i had a slight fever during the night
for i had horrible blood filled nightmares which i usually do when i am sick
however, i felt better by Sunday morning
i attribute this not only to an increase my resistance to allergic reactions
BUT ALSO A BREAKTHROUGH VICTORY IN MY DREAMS!
see, i recently figured out that when i am having a good dream, i am usually floating in it and in the best ones i can fly
the more negative they are, the more i am crushed down to earth, and find it harder and harder to move
in the worst ones 'Mother Earth' pulls me under in a suffocating heat
but not Sat. night, on sat. night i used a different tactic
usually when i find myself being held back in my 'dreamares'
i just continue to try and grind it out
and the more i do so, the more i am pulled back
and whatever chases me continues to gain on me
but not on Sat. night, instead i just let go
and somehow felt myself sucked not into the earth but the sky
i think i briefly became a star
i liked that
but then i woke up
:-O
this whole 'Jerry Finn thing'
it reminds me of my dad and his brain hemmorage
it was left to me to decide if and when to turn of the life support
i still think i made the right decision turning it off
but still i root for people in similiar circumstances to beat the odds, and wake up perfectly fine
weird huh?
well, now i am going to try and set up a wireless network for my mom here
i have no idea what i am doing really
so this may be my last time online til i get back to SF on Sunday...
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It is already going to be 7 years since my mothers death. Sept 9th... Yet, I can remember how much it hurt so vividly. And I can also smile now..
It is sad to hear of those that dies.Yet, I shall try to be positive..
It is my only hope, I need to be positive and go with it.
You reminded me of one of my top 10 songs that I simply love and can always bring a sense of hope for me..
I'd like to share it with you!
It always can bring a smile to my face...
Dazzle**
The stars that shine and the stars that shrink
In the face of stagnation the water runs
Before your eyes...
Swallowing diamonds
A cutting throat
Your teeth when you grin
Reflecting beams on tombstones
A jamboree of surprises
Playing Russian roulette
Or the Lucky Dip
A clenched fist to your heart
Coal dust on your lungs
A silver tongue for the chosen one
Heavy magnum in your side or a bloody thorn
Skating bullets on angel dust
In a dead sea of fluid mercury
Baby piano cries
Under your heavy index & thumb
Pull some strings -- let them sing
The stars that shine and the stars that shrink
In the face of stagnation the water runs
Before your eyes...
Dazzle -- It's a glittering prize
Before your eyes...
It's a glittering prize...
Here you can see it on youtube as well...
It is nice that you are helping you momma out..
I hope to hear from you soon...
I hope your connection does not Blow up!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94wZxJBbv3g
Wow I remember this song often!
lol
Huggabunch to you Robby.