I have a very strong hunch that it would be impossible to communicate with him. If I brought up the subject, say, went for a walk with him, told him, that I'm not into sharing my lover, though I had thought I might be okay with a 'friends with benefits' thing, I had thought that when I was under the impression he wasn't a rampant slut. Being an FWB can be good if I'm the only one. I guess I better spell it out for him...but I'm afraid that if I do, it'll be game playing, dragging this on. I want in, or out, not fence sitting.

I have that hunch though, that even if it's in, it won't stay that way,...that he'll find a way to make it storm for me again. God he is reminding so much of this other one I went out with...how he ran over my feelings when he saw some greener grass. He was fucking merciless. He used to mumble the same way. I had to ask him to repeat just about EVERYTHING he'd say.

Shit. Why do I like this guy. I need to go into self-preservation mode.

It's just his body I like. That, and that he hasn't seemed to do anything deliberately to give pain. He's just, not able to empathize much it seems. He also seems respectful of a 'no', and takes simple instructions well. That's what I like, but can he, be intelligent...well, obviously if he can't empathize, he won't be able to understand the subtleties of what will hurt or help me.

This means, I do like him, but, a close relationship with him would be foolish, unless he changed first, and proved that.

I hope I'm settled about this now and can move on to another topic *rolls eyes*.