I am such a funny character!!! Serious!!! I love going back and reading my journal!!!! I can laugh at myself..really I can!!! I can't even get the time to write once a year in this journal...but me coming back shows that this site is always still a part of me and my life...even though I am part of the married ...I live in suburbia life!!! Gosh I need a fix...a concert....a weekend of pure debauchery!!! Ughhh...carpools...cookouts....it's all a big whirlwind of domesticness...... I still get ancy thinking about my former life...the fun, the partying.....the guys..... But then I look at my wonederful life I also have...it's kind of weird...you dream of getting the house, the career, the perfect man....and when you get it ...then what??? Oh Seadoos, a boat, a timeshare in the Bahamas.....yikes! I mean I do think about those things....but it's weird how having what the "Jones" have really effects you when you live the "Surban Family" life. I used to worry about...money for drinks or a new mini skirt!!!! Funny! I guess I am having growing pains...you know I'm 32 know and still have the heart of a 21-22 year old party girl...the transition is somewhat sad...but yet good...because I can't live that life forever ...right...or can I???? Is it pathetic to see a 32 year old woman out at the clubs dancing around drunk in a mini skirt....hot at 22....kinda pathetic at 32....whatever...I'm still hot....in a Westeria Lane kinda way....think Eva Longoria...yeah that's me...minus the hot gardener.....No Jesse Metcalf for me.....it's Jose and Julio....hmmmmmmmm note to self....higher hot gardener!!! Well nothing major in life the my 30 something crisis.....until I get time ....I check in!!!! And as always VIVA MoZ!

Well I have not writtien in my journal in ...dare I say a few years or so!!! Yes it's true. I have neglected to inform or update my lifes goings on. So much has happend in this time. I finally let that bum of cheating lying bastard boyfriend go. The only thing we shared as far as love goes is a love for Moz. He used my undying love for the man as a connection to me...bribing me with concerts etc... to keep me around and the promise of future concerts. We have went to a total of 8. I'm a sucker! But he is gone!!! Has been for quite sometime since I am now happily married! Yes...it is true I am a married woman. My husband made an honest woman out of me! I had to stop tricking myself to my Ex for Morrissey tickets!!!! Anyway...life is grand! Not only do I have a wonderful husband, whom does not get the whole Morrissey thing but gladly let's me be me and hands over the $$$ for anything Moz related my heart desires. No this is not why I married the man. I married him because I love him and he loves me completely and unconditionaly and that is all a woman really needs...oh and he makes lots of $$$$. Not that I'm materialistic, but it helps. Well I also have changed careers thanks to my hubby and he has "enabled" me to make lot's of $$$ on my own!!!! So this story does have a happy ending!!!! I know I said this last time that I would promise to write...but this time I mean it. Okay I'll admit my life is not exciting as it once was...the clubs, bars, Hollywood, concerts....but I guess Disneyland,Seaworld might be just as exciting...okay who am I kidding. Hey that whole Desperate Houswives thing is in...so I'm on the pulse of things right??????

Well I have not been writing in my journal lately, as this was brought to my attention by a certain Moz-solo user. I said I'm going to try at least once weekly to update my journal. Well lets see what's new with me..... Oh yeah, well no boyfriend anymore!!!! I laughed when I read the last entry of my journal. My gosh how soon things change..huh! It's been over a month since I dumped him...yeah dumped him. The wonderful new feeling of the relationship seemed to fade, and I'm all about excitment and new things, so he had to go! I just back from Lake Havasu this past Memorial weekend...wish I could give details, but way too much to tell. As for my plans for this weekend...I'm actually going to go see Coldplay at the Hollywood Bowl, and I'm going with my XX boyfriend. We have some how rekindeled our romance. He is a mirror image of moi, just in male form. He is the Handsome Devil in my life. We have this bond that somehow does not fade no matter how much I stray or he strays, we some how always end up together (4 1/2 years). Not to mention he is the only guy who loves Moz just as much as me. He does not think I'm weird like all the other guys. He has a poster of Moz over his bed just like me!!!! He has "The Smiths" on the back of his car, I have "Morrissey" on the back of mine, we both also have "MOZ" stickers on our cars. Hmmmm is it the love of Moz or the love for each other that keeps us coming back together??? Who knows!!!! I guess I will write next week and let you know journal what happend with my weekend with "you know who" at the concert and staying over his place. Till then.......toodles.

Well this is my very first entry since I've been coming to Morrissey-Solo.......which has been the past three years faithfully!!! Anyway... Not much to write. It's cold and rainy outside. Horrid weather for sunny souther California. Oh well. It makes me want to go home and sleep, but alas summer is just around the bend and I need to go to the gym today, since I skipped yesterday's work out. The winter months were not kind to my waistline. I was kind of hoping to see my boyfriend tonight, but I'm sure I will be to tired to see him. I guess I'll have too wait till the weekend. If I put off seing him all week I get all excited and giddy with anticipation by the time Friday rolls around. He only lives 10-15 minutes away, but I'm oh so busy during the week. I also like my space too. I guess I'm going to try and write weekly or maybe even twice if something interesting happens. Hmmm I usually have lot's to write about after the weekends....... Well till Monday..........