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Thursday April 03, 08
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06:38 PM - Be warned, this is long
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About 2 weeks after me and chantelle started hanging out she mentioned that her and a couple of people were gonna go camping for a bit over summer. One of these people, a guy called Jon she'd never actually met coz a mutual friend of theirs introduced them over the internet.
So they'd been talking for a while and decided they should meet up since they were gonna be going on holiday together anyway.
He's from Wales and had a bit more money at the time so it was decided he should come down for the weekend for them to get to know each other.
As it is with her and me being her 'one friend' at the time pretty much 5 minutes after he got through her door she drove them both round to mine which was kind of embarrissing considering i was still in bed at the time.
Anyway so the 3 of us hung out for the day and he turned out to be a proper nice guy, just the sort of genuine person who you don't meet very often so i immediatly liked him. Later on that night chantelle invited a few people over for drinks and long story short the more chantelle drunk, the stronger she came onto Jon untill she was sitting on his lap and they were making out in the way you really don't wanna see. I decided at that point it might be time to leave so i sort of embarissingly mumbled my goodbyes trying not to look and left.
I was woken up in the morning by a phonecall from chantelle going "what the fuck happened last night?! i don't remember anything and Jon's naked in my bed!" i laughed untill i heard him say somthing, realising he had just heard her say that didn't make me feel too good, it was a bit harsh you know? anyway i told her what i'd seen and that was that.
When he left later that day i spent some time teasing chantelle about it as i should but it was pretty obvious tht she really liked him. They didn't get together quite obviously because reading to swansea is a bit of a treck, not even being in the same country and everything. She said she was ok with it coz it wasn't somthing she could do anything about but i wasn't so sure she was.
Me and him didn't talk much, added each other on facebook and had each other on msn but for some reason never went any further then hey, how are you type stuff.
We didn't see him again untill new year's eve when he came down for this party we were going to. I was kind confused about them because they were barly talking at all, infact i think i talked to him more then she did but then the drink started flowing.
I was having one of those really annoying nights where no matter how many drinks i had i just couldn't get drunk so i was just looking around and i noticed chantelle looking pretty legless. This confused me aswell coz she'd only had 2 or 3 drinks, nowhere ner enough to get her that pissed but then i saw her once again cozying up to Jon,and ending quite quickly with him having to half carry her upstairs and put her to bed. As far as i know nothing happened between them that night but it did set a lightbulb off in my head that she was obviously pretending to be drunk as an excuse to come onto him. Why she did this i'll never know coz he was talking to me earlier that night about how he thought he was falling in love with her.
Anyway, suprisingly enough in the morning she once again had no recollection of what happened the night before and was pretty much ignoring Jon.
After that he came up in conversation every now and again with her giving this little smile whenever his name was mentioned but still saying it was no big deal.
Then a few weeks ater we moved in together he invited us up to Wales for this party he was having, i'd just broken up with James at that point so i thought it'd be good for me, meeting new people and that.
Stevie didn't come whining about how he wouldn't know anyone and would just be left on his own, i joked, as i had a few times, that Jon only invited both of us coz he knew it would get chantelle up there but stevie wouldn't take it so we went without him.
At the party it was the same sort of thing, she would barly talk to him and steadily got more affectionate the more she drunk. I spent most of the night with some of his mates, i don't know where they went, most people ended up in the kitchin for some reason so i'm guessing they were there.
Then when all the bad stuff started happenning i was looking at one bed flats and comparing prices when he came online. I figured since those 2 talked he might know why she wasn't speaking to me so i asked but apparently she hadn't been speaking to him either which really suprised me. he started saying how she'd never normally speak to him but he'd get these random drunk txts from her saying how she had trust issues and she couldn't handle a long-distance relationship which was true. His problem with it was, having had alcoholics in his family nothing would make him loose respect for somone faster then if they use alcohol as an excuse for their behaviour or as a crutch. I got his point completely but knowing how much she felt for him i leapt to her defence and tried to justify it but i was thinking playing with somone's feelings like this really wasn't right. If we had still been friends i would of talked to her about it.
In the weeks to come with the housing situation fucking up more and more he helped me a hell of alot and i started feeling really guilty about it. I mean i didn't want to turn him against chantelle or anything. I talked to him about this and he assured me it was the way she treted him that was the reason he didn't like her anymore and how she "shit on you from a great hight" as he put it just enforced that but i still felt guilty.
So, we'd been talking for awhile at this point and i now considered him a very good friend of mine as opposed to somone i knew through somone else and we'd been trying to figure out a time when we could meet up again.
We finally decided on the tuesday just gone and he left today.
It was a really great few days, as it turns out we're those rare people who can just talk and talk and not even realise times going by. We played drinking games and paint-balling and there was just never a dull or akward moment which was so great.
I'm sure most of you have figured out where this is going now.
He'd forgot his sleeping bag which was no worries coz i had one but since we started drinking the moment we got back from picking him up from the station we got veeeeeeeeeeeeery drunk and by the time we decided to sleep niether of us could be bothered to organise some sort of sleeping area for him so we ended up both sleeping in my bed. It was completely innocent and i'm being very serious when i say that but i'm sure some sort of lightbulb should of gone off after waking up from spending the night in each other's arms and it in no way whatsoever feeling wierd. But hey we didn't so yeah.
The second night, last night we drunk more and dedcided to go to bed when my neighbour knocked on my door at 3m yelling at us over the noise we were apparently making.
Waking up again this morning i think we both sub-consiously had decided we liked each other but niether of us particularly wanted to think about it. I was realising more and more throughout the day, he gives me butterflies almost as intense as the way northern james did when i first came to uni.
When he got back and signed on msn he started talking to me about what i thought about somone having feelings for a friend and whether i think they should tell them considering it might risk their friendship by doing it.
Me being as fucking dim as i am about these things had absiloutly no idea that he was talking about me, in the end he just said it.
For some reason the long-distance thing isn't bothering me at all, i think it's because that's the only way i've ever known him but i immediatly brought up chantelle. I know nothing's happening between them now, i know me and her are not friends anymore, i know me and her arn't even speaking anymore but she will find out and i don't want to hurt her.
We discussed that for awhile and the plan at the moment is to just see how it goes, one day at a time sort of thing.
It's wierd and sort of scary right now, i'm really not sure but i think it's a good thing.
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Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile
because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright."
and remember it is not only someone making you smile.. But that you can make him smile as well..
So be careful with your vibes.. Just take it as it comes.. For you have a whole life to live and many more lovely days to come...
Have a great weekend.. and
Smile:)
and keep writing..
It shall work out just fine.
Truly
Marisela