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Tuesday April 01, 2008
05:04 PM
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I constantly moan...now that my eyes are open.

I decided today that I died about 5 or 6 years ago. I am not sure who this new person is that has taken the spot of that girl who has passed on...but I am trying to get use to her and to this new body.
I am as depressed as ever and I am sitting in the pool of it wadding, spashing, and soon drowning.
I have been having chest pains latlely I am not sure if I pulled a muscle or if its something more serious...I might go to the dr tommorow. I am not scared if it is anything because this life I am living is a hell that I wouldn't mind escaping. I hate it all. I can't control anything anymore and it scares me silly.
I just don't know what the fuck to do. I can't kill myself for the fear of the next life...I can't change too much because change scares me just as much as not having control. Oh God please help me. Save me from me.

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sense of meaning, purpose and hope (Score:1)
Sounds like " a lack of real spice in your life ".
redpathetic <redpathetic@yahoo.com> -- Wednesday April 02 2008, @06:22AM (#299434)
(User #6184 Info | http://www.myspace.com/redpathy )
Happy in this final acceptance of his own absurdity...Albert Camus
    Open your eyes my darling... (Score:1)
    There is a light that never goes out!

    Wrap yourself in the comfort of Morrissey lyrics and remember there is something even greater than Moz out there for you.

    I know how awful it is to be miserable. I have been there so many times myself and believe me, I am not lying to you when I say I wanted it to be over. Even now, with my faith as strong as it is, I still feel unutterably low and lonely for human contact.

    But I know it is only a test and I can get throught it.

    The real you is not dead inside. This is the real you. Don't be afraid of what you are. You must learn to understand yourself and se how the changes in your life can be positive instead of negative.

    I know that sounds ridiculous when everything around you has gone down the pan, but it is not impossible.

    I may not know you, but I stretch out my hand to you in your time of need. I will be there if you want me to be.

    Email me and I will reply.

    Sometimes it is easier to talk to those we don't know so well...

    new_avenger@hotmail.com

    I'll pray for you too.

    Don't feel alone in your struggle - there are friends all around you - you just don't know who they are yet.

    x
    Kitty3780 -- Thursday April 10 2008, @11:40AM (#300126)
    (User #17786 Info | http://www.myspace.com/kitty3780 )
    "There is something I wanted to tell you..."


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