Well this past week I saw Franz Ferdinand...who rocked my socks off then the next night I saw The Killers I got some footage of the event on my youtube page...check it out!:D
http://www.youtube.com/user/Sirenluvluv
some Moz footage on their too from the April show in Minneapolis.

My videos of the Morrissey EXP are now up on Youtube.com just go to my channel....
www.youtube.com/Sirenluvluv

My Brother Darin and I started out our trek to see Morrissey LIVE and in the flesh early
morning of April 6th 2009. We arrived at our destination in Minneapolis, MN at the State Theater to find that we could peek into the venue because all that held us eager Morrissey fans back were elegant glass doors adorned with black curtains on the front but we were scolded at by security early on for our peeking but that didn't stop other curious Morrissey fans because throughout the day as we
would come back to see if more Moz fans showed up we saw that they too peeked behind the
curtain. Since this being my FIRST Morrissey concert where I actually had a SEAT number
and reserved spot that meant no waiting in line for ONCE YESSS!!! So we decided to see the sites
around the area of the State Theater and just a block down was Game works which turned out
to be quite a fun spot to kill time at. We made a rock video of our heads singing and dancing
on cartoon bodies to the song Venus which I will upload for your youtube pleasure. Then we
played some resident evil type games except where you have a real gun amongst other games
they had on the first level. We finally made our way upstairs and come to find they had
COSMIC BOWLING and for us folk that live in the boonies of South Dakota this was a
treat!! So we bowled a round then after that excitement we made our way back to the State
Theater and by this time it was nearing 5 in the afternoon and the show was to start at 7:30 so
we decided it was time to get some grub and we made our way to a restaurant inside the state
theater called Rock Bottom and it lived up to its name! The food was at best OK and very
pricey. After that I decided to go back to my vehicle and get the tickets and my camera and my
brother was going to just chill and wait in the lobby area. I go outside and as I'm strolling
along on the sidewalk the sun shining down at me a big shadow is casted along me and I look
at a big silver bus turn towards the venue and I am thinking, Hmmmm...I wonder if that's
Moz's bus and it turns to go to the side of the venue about the side where his semi is
unloading gear into the building. As I am standing on the corner awaiting to see who comes
out I see HIM I know its HIM because I mean how do you MISS Morrissey's silhouette? So I
and the fellow walking in front of me take off running to the crowd that was already awaiting
him of about maybe 8 people of whom I believe have been following him around on the tour
from California. I rush over and he walks right in front of me shaking hands but refusing
pictures and all I can say is " Moz! Moz! Moz! just then his strikingly blue eyes turn and look
at mine and I just smile big he turns and I semi-shout, "how's the baby?" he gives me the
Morrissey look and smiles and goes into the venue and with that I am in shock I rush back
into the venue lobby to tell my brother what has just happened! I take him to the scene of the
excitement where the others are also freaking out about meeting the MAN!! I talk with the
others that met Morrissey and we discuss how surreal it was and after that Darin and I head
back to the truck to get the tix and camera. We decide to just wait inside the venue and at
about 6ish they open the doors and we were the first ones inside!!! I had pit tickets. The pit
consisted of a two row area that held about 30 of us lucky Morrissey fans. We were in the 2nd
row and upon talking with security it was my understanding that once Morrissey came on the
pit became sort of free for all and we could stand at the stage but till then we had to remain in
our seats. Sir John Betjamin's voice read to us a poem as we sat and awaited the show to
begin of which the security guard questioned me about asking, "what is this?" upon me telling
him he gave me a look like "oooohhhkay whatever" insert eye roll here. But after talking to
this security guard I came to find he was pretty cool and was surprised he didn't get a ticket for
the show because he knew Johnny Marr and had gone to see Modest Mouse in concert before.
Finally the house lights went down and The Courteeners took the stage opening up with
Cavorting. Now I actually was looking forward to seeing this band because they are fucking
brilliant in my opinion and so far the pit area was looking bleak with the Left side having NO
one in the front row yet and maybe 3 people in the 2nd row our side on the Right had 4 people
in the front and well the 2nd row had just me and my brother in it. At one point we kinda
danced in our whole row due to the awesome amount of room we had to do such. As The
Courteeners took the stage me and my brother stood up and started dancing like MAD!!! I
soon realized we were the ONLY ones in the WHOLE venue standing up, dancing! I couldn't
believe it and the place was still pretty empty as well. At one point the lead singer of The
Courteeners gave me and my bro a huge smile as if to give us props for cheering them on. I
love this band!! They went on to play their other hits such as Acrylic, Your Not Nineteen
Forever, That Kiss (i love that song), shameless, Yesterday today and probably tomorrow,
but it was a blast dancing almost what seemed to be a private show for me and my brother up
in front I almost felt like I was dancing in my own living room. At one point my brother yelled
we love you The Courteeners and the lead singer responded with well we love you too haha it
was awesome!! I got both of The Courteeners set lists too!! YAY!

After their set they began preparing the stage for Morrissey.
I was delighted to
watch the videos projected on the big sheet covering Morrissey's backdrop. Most of the videos
were of The Shocking Blue and others were of The New York Dolls some of it was stuff from
the last tour that he had played. The music that played on the speakers was music obviously
hand picked by Morrissey bands such as: Kristeen Young, Damien Dempsey, The New York
Dolls, and The Pretenders. I finally got up and asked the security guard I had spoken with
earlier if it was ok we stand at the stage and he was like yup as far as I know its free for all go
ahead so I got up there and the people in the front row pit were still seated and in my opinion
seemed like complete squares and were probably in their 30s and didn't seem like the concert
going types and one couple I believe went and complained to the house security because that's
when some head honcho security guy came in and was like okay everyone get back to your
seats in the pit because its not fair you 2nd row folks be in front of the front row people blah
blah blah...I was thinking to myself yeah I'm second row but I prolly paid twice what the front
row people paid so yes please Mr. security guard tell me about fair! (note: I purchased my
awesome tickets from ticketcyclone.com a top notch screw you in the ass for your money but
its worth it cuz its Morrissey scalper website) Anyways so NOW the rules changed...Security
was going to let the front row pit people get their shot at front row stage cling before us
second row pit folk. There was no barrier whatsoever we were right against the stage and
security was tight on the floor they had security on both L and R sides and a guy in the center
then ON the stage a huge lurch type dude to the R and on the L well was Morrissey's one and
only bodyguard who is made of stone. Me and my brother secured a good spot right against
the stage right side. I was happy. Morrissey opened with This Charming Man. He came out
with a sign that read Savage Beast and I shouted it should read: Sexy Beast but I don't believe
he heard me. I tried to record as much as I could but at one point Morrisseys personal
bodyguard shined me with the flashlight and mouthed to me no video no flash for pictures! and
I kinda like nodded like yeah whatever. I mean its not fair other people around me had
cameras too! GRRRR!!! It seemed like when I did get my camera out Morrissey shyed away
from our side I almost wonder if he is annoyed by people videotaping him at his show and
posting it on youtube? Thats the vibe I got. But I didn't care because at all my other shows I
never took my camera in but I told myself 'this time" I am taking it in dammit! haha Anyways
back to the show....now this show was the fifth time I've seen Morrissey and compared to the
other shows which I've had SUCH great experiences at this one actually was kind of a let down
it didn't seem like Morrissey was "into" it as much as he's been in the past. I think I saw his
posterior more than his face. He had his back to us most of the time! He also didn't dance or
do any Morrissey theatrics as much either. His singing performance though was top notch. He
was in full form there! At one point he handed the mic to a girl on the left side front row and he
gushed on how she loved him ect. then he made the comment on how he needed to find a lovely
voice which is when I locked eyes with him and made a motion to give me the mic and HE

DID! I took the mic and I said, "Moz.." he said "yes?" and I asked, "Hows the Baby?" haha I
thought it to be a clever funny thing to say. The audience laughed and he said, "Why do you
laugh when asking about my baby? I take my baby very seriously." Then he gave the mic to
another gal just to the right of me and she said something like "I'm just shaking in your
presence" something like that and Morrissey said something in reply like to take some kind
of medication for it. haha Morrissey always has the best comebacks. I love it.

Later in the show I made a poem for Morrissey on the back of a postcard of a Native American
man because I live on the reservation I am part Sioux Indian and well anyhow I handed him my
postcard during one of the songs and he almost didn't take it but saw it last minute and put his
hand out behind his back and snatched it from me and tucked it away in his back pocket. So
for the rest of the show my postcard remained on Morrisseys BUTT!! YAY!! haha
{My poem I wrote for him on the postcard went:
CD computer cassette rewind fast-forward
forget
concert one I was so close to you
concert two I needed even more
concert three was such a bore
because the stage was high up off the floor
concert four I drove galore
now we are on concert five and I'm glad your still alive.}
My brother said I should of recited that over the mic but I like the whole ""hows the baby bit"
haha.
I think for this show my favorite songs he did were: Seasick But Still Docked because this
song is just truly amazing and the lyrics make me tear up every time! Ask because that is one
of the songs that got me hooked on The Smiths actually the whole Queen is Dead album really
did it for me. I also enjoyed Sorry Doesn't Help Us that song along with Something Is
Squeezing my Skull those two are my favorites on the new album besides Its Not Your
Birthday Anymore but he didn't do that live :( Does anyone else think Something Is Squeezing
my Skull sounds like a Smoking Popes song? I do.

Well at the encore of First of The Gang to Die I started something I couldn't finish....I tried to
get onstage but I just couldn't boost myself up fast enough and I got knocked back by lurch
and after my attempt it went to complete mayhem! and a that lurch guard did a football tackle
to a guy and landed off the stage on the floor completely on their backs others got shoved off
and finally it settled down and a guy next to us lost his glasses but retrieved them shortly there
after. Morrissey looked a bit concerned and security was very tight so unfortunately I did not
make it on stage. :( But I believe my Morrissey experience was just as good without it.

I got Jessie's guitar pick that reads Mexi Can. We then made our way to the merchandise
stand and I wanted to get a signed LP but alas just as I was going to ask for one another dude
jumped in and got the last one but I did ask him if I could get a picture with it and he was a
nice guy of whom we had chatted with and he let me he had come from Vancouver Canada for
the show!
After the show me and my brother headed over to 7th street entry for the after party. It was
such a fun time as we walked in the song What Difference Does It Make was blaring over the
speakers and Morrissey fans are the best and most fun people to party with. Darin and I made
our way to the dance floor right when James, "Laid" came on and I was ecstatic I love that
song!! Other songs played were: Pulp-common people, Jesus and Mary Chain-Head On,
Edwyn Collins-A Girl Like You, New Order, Panic-The Smiths, Hairdresser On Fire-Moz,
The Cure-Just Like Heaven, Irish Blood English Heart-Moz, ect....I even danced with a fellow
that looked like the character SPUD from the movie Trainspotting he seriously was that guys
twin it was soooo funny he danced to Pulp's Common People with me.

After that we headed back to the hotel and passed out! haha What a fun day!! I am very lucky. Stay tuned to my youtube.com page: http://www.youtube.com/sirenluvluv [youtube.com] I will be posting video there later tonight!!

So come Monday I get to see Moz again. 5th time for me...heres my poem I wrote for Moz that I am putting on a postcard...
cd computer cassette rewind fastforward forget
concert one I was so close to you
concert two I needed even more
concert three was such a bore
because the stage was high up off the floor
concert four I drove galore
now we are on concert five and I'm glad your still alive.
Yup so thats my poem..
I am soooo excited to see Moz and I unfortunatly paid 700 bucks :( cuz I got them from ticketcyclone.com and they were 360 bucks a piece...so actually more than 700 bucks I spent..yes a shame but its SO worth it to see Moz. Morrissey better put on a DAMN good show and wash my car afterwards for that amount haha jk.
I am SOOOO getting on stage this time round the last time I saw him in Omaha both my brothers jumped up there and I didnt because well a.)I was wearing a dress and B.) I had lost a contact lens earlier in the set....so with those two things going against me I decided to stay on the ground and told myself NEXT time and well NEXT time is MONDAY folks!! This Bullied Child is getting up there and giving Moz a big smoocheroo.
I also have my outfit picked out I am wearing a black skinny tee with awesome jeans a zebra print cardigan over that and on top of that a punk rock imitation leather jacket with my pins on it and white shoes. I am going to do TOTAL glam rock makeup blues pinks whites and silvers!!! and the reddest lipstick to boot...MOZ will lurve me!! haha I thought since he's all into the glam rock like t-rex the cramps and the new york dolls why not dress punky-glam rock? RIGHT!
Well I will give you the complete LOW down of the gig and I am taking my camera in this time too damnnit!! I am going to get all the best footage!:D This is my new thing as of late taking my cam in and recording the shows. WOOOT! Drop me a line if any of you mozzites are attending. I am going to get there early to bum around the venue and chit chat with Moz fans because NO ONE in my town knows Moz and its refreshing to talk to ppl who do know him. :D

So as of late life has been good. I've been attending concerts and have concerts to look forward to. I saw AC/DC (haha) with my cousin because he had an extra ticket and he knew I would be down for a concert so i went and I must say AC/DC really does put on a concert they had it all for stage pressence. It was a fun night all in all. Then I recently bought tickets to see The Killers for my brother for x-mas because that is his favorite band! I was blown away by that show we had pit GA tickets and there was about only 50 of us lucky ones there and there was NO barrier! I soooo wanted to get up on stage and do a morrissey type rush to Brandon Flowers but I am not sure what he would of done or what security would of done for that matter haha. But we both got to touch him foot and got it on camera haha. I also met a lovely english gal who traveled from London to see The Killers so that was a delight for me because I just adore english people, I love the accent and their slang they use. At one point she was looking me over because I wore alot of pins and neat things in my hair and she says to me in her english accent, "I just love all your bits!" hahaha it was awesome.
The highlight of the show for me was when The Killers played Shadowplay!! I danced my ass off to this, its such a great cover~!
Another concert I have to look forward to is seeing The Airbourne Toxic Event at the end of this month if you have not yet heard them go check them out they are amazing! Its their debut album and every song on it is top notch and fabulous! The lead singer actually is a huge fan of Morrissey's lyrics so upon hearing that I said well I knew there was a reason I liked these guys so much! haha But I am seeing them at some little bar which I'm thrilled about because some of their songs are about being "under the bar lights" so it will suit their songs. The story of how their band was formed is an interesting one as well. The lead singer basically found out his mother had cancer, his gf broke up with him, and he found out he has a rare genetic disorder...so after all this devistating news he said fuck it and I'm forming a rock band and despite what his doctors say he should and shouldn't be doing he did it! Its an awesome story makes me love the band and his lyrics just the more because I SO can relate to his lyrics!!!
Okay so then in March I am seeing my favorite musical Fiddler On The Roof now I wouldn't go to this if it was just regular actors but someone special is going to be there....TOPEL is going to be there! Now if you've seen the movie the dad that is in it well he is actually going to be there live and in person and I just adore him and his singing and acting!! I cannot believe I get to see him sing If I were A Rich Man live~!! I am excited.
Then for April I am seeing Morrissey In Minneapolis I got pit row 2 seats for this. This time round I am GETTING ON STAGE!!! I AM. I am giving this man a hug dammit. haha
At the end of April I am traveling a bit to see The Killers again in Wisconsin at the Eagles Rave Club, lets hope this venue is better than the Eagles Ballroom. I wasn't a fan of The Eagles Ballroom when I saw Moz there a few years back because the barrier was HUGE AND there are flights of stairs you have to endure going up to get to the venue so it was a FIGHT to get to that front row I got elbowed and pushed, it was crazy.
So that is my adventures past, present, and future....so exciting!

She confides in him
he takes her beauty in
she feeds him lust
he feeds her lines of false promises
and empty dreams
of a future not going to happen
an empty bowl of bullshit
awaiting a expecting heart
a heart awaiting love and passion

Lately I can hardly function I am so depressed I am like a deflated balloon I am slowly airing out deflating into nothing...
I feel as if I am spinning out of control fluttering about the room with no direction.
I cry all the time lately.
There were a turn of events as of late that "pushed" me over the edge. I don't care to go into detail but its really sucky to be me atm.
I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up.
I don't know what to do.
I have tried counseling...didn't work...
tried so many things....
nothing works...
everything keeps getting worse.
Please pray for me...
next week I go to the dr of which I have been dreading because I either hear GREAT news or DEVASTATING news and this has been the burden of my stresses lately but yes PLEASE keep me in your thoughts next Tues.
Has anyone on here ever overdosed on pills? What happens does it work??? I need options.
I seriously think my body is giving out finally I have been really sick lately too, almost like my body knows I want to give up and pass on because seriously I have no hopes....no dreams anymore...the only three things in my life keeping me going is 1. My dad 2. my bf and 3. my dog...

The feelings within has consumed me once again
its darkness engulfing my inner being
free me from this world
free me from myself
the torment the agony I inflict
upon myself
I cannot hide from the thoughts that I feel inside
someone help me I cannot die
I don't want to die
this world is too precious
but the choices I made the desicions they will last till my last breath
the horrible things I did I relive
each and every day this torment I cannot live with
DOES ANYONE UNDERSTAND
one in 3 has this disease
why did it have to be ME!
tears run fast down a face thats ashamed living with the guilt of the past mistakes
someone have a gun?
I just want to say fuck it all
My only last and longing prayer is that I can finally live a NORMAL life without the anxiety and fear
to be able to wake up and feel great like nothing is wrong and as if I could turn back the clock
tick tock
time goes by and its still goes on not turning back
the past is done and the mistake won
someone help me I am living hell on earth their has to be a better place after I die oh god please if anything let there be this cant be it
Dear God please help me.

Why does love drive a person?
It drives parents to work hard for their children.
It drives children to work hard for the affections from their parents.
It drives lovers INSANE!
Well love is driving me insane and has from the very day I first fell in love.
If someone could package the sensation of falling in love into a pill I would be an addict.
Is this what drugs feel like?

she ran up to meet him arms open wide then he turned away
she died inside
a tear ran down her cheek
not even a glance from his eye
emptiness filled her heart
these days they were apart felt like an eternity in an empty room
things left unsaid is like a death with no funeral or a song without the chorus its a story without an end
they were the perfect couple now they will remain the tragedy of lovers a tragedy that is a start to a new beginning the past they remember within their hearts.