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Tuesday April 22, 03
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07:48 PM - Screwed up lil babe
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Today I had school. I woke up at 6:45 a.m. and thought of Matt. He didn't call me. Sigh. He didn't call me at all today. It's really messed up. Like 2 years ago I wanted to fucking kill Hisham for calling me 20-30 times a day everyday, but I yearn for a phone call from Matt. Lol. I'm funny. Whatever. He doesn't call, he doesn't call. He better call me in time tomorrow or I'll leave his ass and go to the YB meeting.Lol. I love him. So anyways, I handed in my bullshit papers and essays that I scrambled to do at 10 p.m. on Monday night. I finished at 11:30 P.M. I'm good. It's just so sad to see Mr.K put so much faith in my work and i'm like bullshitting. Maybe I'm a great bullshitter that he doesn't notice. Today I got The Smiths "Singles" CD from Liz. I'm so happy. I can't wait to open it!! I don't own Singles, but I know every song on it by heart, you know? It's just cool. I love The Smiths. I had work today after school. It went well. I fucked up today. Sana took me out for a treat of a slice of pizza and cookies n cream ice cream. i'm so gonna pay the price. After I'm done writing this I want to work out for at least 45 minutes. I'm gonna go all out because prom is on my ass and I have to look really super cute-so yeah. I have to get up at 6 and work out, and I'll definantly do a fast before. I feel gross-like ugh gross.I ignored Maram really well the whole day. I don't love her anymore. It's like, she wasn't really my friend to begin with. Well, I decided that I'm so not going to Baruch. Oh Mi God, Matthew just came online...What do I do? Do I IM him? Grr..I'm like a fucking 12 year old with a major crush.Like seriously, the dude is my boyfriend..Whatever. The man IMs me first. Anyways, I'm holding out for Hunter, so yeah..I dunno..Maybe I should just go to Egypt. I mean mommy is going to go live there with my brothers, so might as well go with her. But if I go, I know Hisham's going to come knocking on my door(as well as many other young Egyptian suitiors). Grr..I don't want any of them man. I don't care if they know every Metallica, Pantera and Slayer song by heart. I don't care if they like The Smiths(like no one knows the Smiths there.) Well, maybe if they look like Moz I'd look twice..but I love Matt. I want to stay here with Matt. Like for real. Like he's just so fucking awesome. Grr..I don't want to IM him because mommy said that if a boy(no matter how sensitive or bs like that)finds that a girl is like head over hells he'll go cold. And i really don't want that..Grrr..Wait this smells like another rule of "the game." Fuck the game. I flirted with Matt with every trick in the book until I had to fucking get him undef a blanket..Sheesh. I'll IM him. Whatever. Well, I don't know if I should stay or if I should go.UPDATE: I imed him and he said he called me 10 mins.ago.I asked him to call me back and he's like, "no. I'm talking to other people." Awww..
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