There is a difference between being depressed and being unhappy.

Depression isn't caused by anything real...it's a spectral miasma that creeps up on you unannounced and pummels you into submission. The thing is, because it's caused by something unreal it can be controlled. I can easilly hide my depression. I can hide it from practically anyone. It's not always a good idea though, because people the assume that you are okay and don't see or try to accomodate your anguish.

But unhappiness is much more difficult to hide. When something or someone is breaking your heart...there's no hiding place. When someone stops loving you...there's just no mask that will fit. My boss wants me to go to the doctors because he thinks I've got depression...hahaha....all those times I was genuinely depressed and he never once offered any help. Guess that's how good I am at hiding some things.

Guess that's how messed up I am at the moment.

Still...onwards and upwards, eh?