I remember a time long ago when my guitar teacher told me that playing the guitar was the best thing he knew how to do. I feel that way today, and he was around my age at the time. The efforts I've made to establish some kind of career seem like wasted time. My whole life feels like a waste of time. I'm sure there are people in this world who would do great things with my life if they lived it. I chose to live it in the lamest way possible. But all I ever wanted out of life was to have a good time. I never wanted to go to school or get a job. I just wanted to have a good time. But that's what kids do and I am an adult---that means I have responsibilities. Boring responsibilities. If my goal in life was to take long walks on the beach and in the forest, you could say my life was a success if I died today. The times I spent doing nothing productive were meaningful to me even though no one would ever care---especially teachers and business owners.