Well it's a mad day, I have so much to do even though I've just woken up an it's 11.15am. My room is a tip, I have washing to do and stuff, and a friend is staying for the next 2 nights. Eeek!

I have to confess to being a bit melodramatic last night (melodramatic? Lou? surely not.....) but yes. You know the guy, well what I didn't say is that I got signed out of messenger as he was about to go and by the time I'd got back in he'd gone.

Nevertheless, I've decided he's just not worth it. Even when I do get to talk to him, it's not the most interesting or amusing conversation I have on messenger. I never feel he gives much of himself, and I need that from a friend or anyone. There's a guy who is just a close friend who I enjoy talking to much more, and this can't be right. Plus I'm bored of his mind games and general fuckwittage. And his exhausting needy ex. I find it hilarious listening to his scathing criticisms of her, then realise he's still talking to her! Just TOO funny! They really should get back together. It'll be very amusing seeing her so happy when I know all the cruel things he's said about her. Haha.

Yeah I've turned a corner. Every shred of sympathy and understanding I had for her has gone. She is so two-faced, sad, desperate and self-centred it makes me sick. When I think of all the lengths I went to to protect her and defend her, it's laughable. She's never listened to a word I've said, I'm just the 'other woman' who seduced and brainwashed her poor innocent defenceless 'boy'. Pathetic. I fancied him sure, but I never pursued him.

Anyway, I've suspected his motives for a while and realised he's so not worth it. He hangs onto her as she makes him feel wanted and loved and NEEDED. He knows I don't need him. He's so insecure that he needs that. Damn scorpio boys, all the same. I still think he's funny and can be interesting, but I don't like the barrier and the lies. So I'm walking away. YAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I don't even feel sad, just a bit annoyed about the time and effort I invested in him and his pathetic ex. Let's see how long it takes him to go back to her! I'm betting 5 days. He needs that ego stroking and she's only too willing to provide it.

He was right all along - I'm too good for him.

Right! Had better do some housework!!!

xxx