I have something to say today, for the record. This is my diary. I don’t write it for you, although I have no problem with you reading it and I do love receiving comments. But I just wanted to clarify that this to me is not something to amuse or engage, or to prove how witty or eloquent I am. It’s to release all the shit and paranoia I feel, to give it an outlet so I don’t store it up and let it destroy me. It’s also to record where I am at any time, a record of my mood patterns and thought processes. When I’m feeling funny I share it with someone, via conversation or a text or web chat. I don’t tend to put it on here. So I may come across as boring or neurotic or self-obsessed, but tough, this is here to serve a purpose and it does it well. It releases all the bad thoughts so they don’t linger in my mind.

*sigh* Well things are kicking off at work at there are bad vibes aplenty. The company is trying to screw the surveyors on their pay packages, and everyone is upset. These poor bastards work 10-12 hour days 5 days a week. That will be me in 10 months time, and god I’m wondering if it’s all worth it. I mean I’ll still be well off, but the only compensation in losing my evenings was that I’d save loads of money and be able to do something better after 5 years. Hmmm.

I’m still in a good mood actually. Truth be known, I’m feeling a bit pissed lol. Had a glass of champagne at work as one of the surveyors left today. Went straight to my head.

Anyway I’m out tonight for my meal and cocktails so that’s it. Big up to Biffo, Melaise and Rallen xx