I'm so tired. I'm wondering if it's the tablets again. It's the constant drowsiness that made me come off them 3 years ago. Mentally, the tablets are working. I feel ok, on a plateau (i'm sure that's spelt wrong!).

I feel cheated though. I feel no excitement about xmas. I only get 4 days off and I'm gonna spend one of those driving. My parents are abroad. I haven't bought any presents yet and resent having to spend time and effort queueing amoungst the vile masses to feed the capitalist hunger. Yuk.

But! I'm gonna see my family and old friends and my ex and my baby cat! Yay! I just wish xmas lasted for 2 weeks like it used to!