Having really bad day. Feeling very upset and actually burst into tears before. A message on my answerphone from my Dad did it. I keep missing their calls because I'm on the net, and I want to speak to them so much. Fuck. And I thought the day couldn't get any worse. I just don't want to live at the moment, I'm so unhappy. Just holding on to the thought that on Saturday I'm going to a party and then my American friends are arriving. Just 4 days to get through. I can do that.

Shit now I'm coming across as a drama queen. Excellent.

'This world is full of, so full of crashing bores
And I must be one cos no one ever turns to me to say
Take me in your arms
Take me in your arms, and love me'