Valentine's day is almost upon us once more, that evil day on which the single feel lonely and inadequate (see Haze) and the non-single feel anti-climactic and maybe a bit disappointed.

I got one Val's card last year. It was from a guy I shagged 2 weeks previously who I didn't feel showed any emotional interest in me. I sent 3 I think, to friends. One was for Rallen, who was my best friend at the time and I remember choosing his card and wondering if my feelings were deeper. I was starting to like him romantically but I was scared I was just rebounding so I didn't allow myself to think about it too much.

This year is our first Valentine's day together. I'm dreading it in a way, it can only be an anti-climax. Also Rallen turned round to me last night and asked what I wanted for Val's day. Like ummm what? Ok asking about xmas pressies is acceptable, but this? Jesus hasn't that defeated the whole object? 'Oh yes Rallen, I'd like some nice jewellery or exclusive chocolates, or some leather gloves would be good, or a 5 carat pink diamond ring'. Fuck's sake!!

Even more annoying than being asked is the fact that he's only just thought about it 4 days before the event. I've been thinking about it for about 4 weeks and know what I'm doing. I really don't give a fuck that he can't afford much - if he gave me red roses I'd be so insulted I'd probably dump him anyway - but it's the thought.

Anyway that's a fairly minor annoyance. Apart from that things are wonderful between us, we enjoy each other so much it's quite unbelieveable. So many areas of our lives work together, and even waking up with his arms around me fills me with joy. I'm a lucky girl.

Lx